Unforgottenlove

2009-02-24T20:40:00.007+08:00

OMG!
Instead of studying for my exams these few days,
i have been watching soul eater till episode 45!
Gosh! It is so damn addictive!
"A sound "soul" resides within sound mind and sound soul"
LOL.
Walao!!
At first i thou Stein is going crazy and join that Medusa.
I was like, "OH NO!!!!"
Then Chrona and Maka become friends la!
I cried lor!
It was very touching when both of them hug each other >.<
Fortunately, Stein recovered!!!
I guess he found himself a girlfriend ><
Another part which makes me teared is when Chrona helped Maka blocked Medusa's attack!
Shit lor!!
I cannot believe Chrona did it!
Oh well, fortunately she/he did not die.
5 more episode to go!!!
HORAY!!!

2009-02-10T01:29:00.002+08:00

ワウ !
それは、誰も帰ろうとしているようだntuc..
非常に悲しい! 非常に悲しい !
私は非常に速くなることを期待していない ..
私の愛する友人に,
私はすべての最高のご希望 ^^
海 !
本当に堪えない !
zz

2009-02-07T01:24:00.003+08:00

2009-02-06T02:38:00.002+08:00

あけましておめでとう!みんな!
残念に思う!私は日本語で記入する必要があります.
私は日本の良いと思うです .
ハハ !
後にたくさんのことが起こる,私は成長したと思う.
ハハ !
私はマレーシアに新年度中に行った.
本当に楽しかったです .私はすぐに写真をアップロード ^^
私は私のプロジェクトで忙しいです ,私はすぐに死ぬような気が =(
しかし、私を捨ててはいないだろう..
FIGHT FIGHT パンダ !
さようなら !

2009-01-18T20:05:00.004+08:00

lol just kidding..
really dunno what to write..so decided to post some Chinese poems!
曾经，我们都天真地以为人生是彩色的，未来和梦想绝对会和美好人生划上等号。
曾经，我们都天真地以为人心是纯洁的，只要真心相待绝对不会有欺骗。
曾经，我们都天真地以为爱情是幸福的，没有离别没有心碎更没有痛苦。
曾经，我们都天真地相信事实就是事实，没有混淆不清没有模糊界限。
曾经，我们也都天真地相信自由是掌握在自己手中的，不会身不由己，更不是遥不可及。
后来，我们才发现自己“曾经”太过天真，把现实想像成了乌托邦。
虽然，生活的历练，让我们逐渐相信人生从来就不尽人意，故事也不一定都有美好的结局，真实和虚幻，坦白和欺骗，天使和魔鬼都不是绝对，事情不是只有黑和白，也有灰色地带......

但是，我们都愿意“偶尔”继续天真地相信自己。

2009-01-13T01:12:00.001+08:00

hi everyone!!!
Official closure of this blog..hohoho=D
happy new year !!!

2008-11-16T02:24:00.000+08:00

Adam is poignant today.

2008-11-11T02:22:00.002+08:00

We were born for something and we die for something.
If that is our fate, we cannot resist it.
Traveling down the road that can't be seem, that which lies ahead, is the end of life.
That is truly the guidance of God.
Yet, i want to disobey him.
I want to carry on living.
I dun want to lose , neither i will give in.
Even if i lose, i will always try my best till the end.
>,<

2008-11-10T00:09:00.002+08:00

Life is getting hell bore each day.
For at least i still have my project XXX to be done.
Hopefully i can rush it out before Christmas.
I have no idea what is wrong with me these few days but simply think of many things.
Anyway,we have went to Michelle's concert last Thursday.
We were late for concert, but fortunately we managed to bypass and see the performance.
It was quite enjoyable, just a little bit lack of that exciting atmosphere.
After that we came back to Clementi to eat.
I was really sorry that William and I had ordered too little food.
I was still hungry after dinner and fortunately my mum got cooked at home.

Basically throughout this month, i drew a conclusion that cars are meant for RICH people.
And,i really need to do something about my..mind and my heart.
Especially the part which i easily got jealousy of.
Anyway, I was quite satisfied that my driving improved by that little little bit.
One thing i was pissed about my last lesson was that my instructor was sleeping -.-''
I think my ride was so smooth that he felt asleep."kidding"
Towards the end of lesson, he said that i never do safety checks -.-'''
2 and a half more months to practical!!Getting more and more tensed each day.

面具

2008-10-17T01:02:00.005+08:00

把自己的另一面隐藏起来，看似坚强能耐，实则脆弱易碎，经不起强烈的失败打击。

把自己隔离在异性堆外，看似冷酷无情，实则多愁善感，经不起情绪上的起伏波动。

请原谅，为自己戴上一副“面具”，来提高或贬低自己的形像，以蒙骗外来的眼光。

很大可能，您会认为我很“假”，觉得我犯了严重欺骗之罪应该被抓去做牢或鞭打，
时常穿著坚强面具的我, 就好像小宝宝一样, 只想要大声的号哭.
您又如何知道实际上的我是那么的微小与软弱?

不过，亲爱的您，请想一下您自己是否也和我一样带着一副面具，甚至每天都换上不同的面具？！

我们都一样，喜欢自欺欺人，不过若每个人都摘下虚伪的面具，那这世界就会乱了，对吗?

2008-10-07T22:39:00.002+08:00

Lol...
Yilong, now then you know my observation is far beyond a normal people.
hehe i even know what underwear colour u have and dun have..LOL
That is some censored thing to say.haha!
Nevertheless, this is something to be proud off.
Because of this, i will tend to think more.
Little things changed can really upset me a lot.

Anyway, i think there is some health problem my.
This Sunday,i went jogging with Yilong.
Initially, it was really fine.
Then after almost 3km, my heart hurts.
And then today, i keep experienced some pain in my wrist when i laugh.-.-
Grhh, i hope i can live up to 80 years old. lol

Counting down to school reopens.
I hate it.
My holiday was gone down to the drain and emulsify by that low paid salary.
Oh ya oh ya, just something to add on.
I always thought that Yilong and Michelle never wear the shirts that i gave them de.
Then at least i got see Michelle wore that red shirt. lol
Something to be proud of when you know people actually do appreciate your gifts ^_^

2008-10-05T17:40:00.004+08:00

Hehe.
Just realized that i did not blog for like a month?
Too lazy and too much things to write as well.
Been feeling really down these few days.
Our supervisor has just changed not long ago.
3 new supervisors were introduced.
One china girl, one worth of 10 years exp aunty and one PHILIPPINE MAID.
I would like to highlight this particular MAID who leaves me a very bad impression on the very FIRST DAY.
Not like i am discriminating anything but her way of management is so "horrible, terrible,vegetable"
Well, still trying our tolerate this circumstances until cannot tahan and quit lor.
Yup, talking is easy than actions.
I always think of quitting too. Is not that i cannot find another job or something.
The truth is that once we quit, there is little or no chance that we are going to meet.
U know what? Sometimes i really wish we all can stay on like this forever.
So fun, so contented , soo...memorable.
But we cannot face the fact that we are going to separate one day. I think i guess i presume.
Of course, i hope we still contact each other la.
The salary has been adding on a lot of problems for me as well.
My driving lessons are killing me off.
I always hope that driving allow me to put off all the stress from work and etc.
But, I dunno why my salary so messed up.
Everytime before driving is so excited, but after the lesson i always felt emo.
Made so much mistakes. i am fully aware of these mistakes, but repeatedly making the same mistakes make me feel so idiotic and useless.
Thought my test is still long, but i always scare i fail.
Afterall i think the Malaysia trip is depending on yilong and me.
I mean.. driving your own car is better than taking transports in malaysia right?
I felt so stress up sometimes.
Also I think i can barely survive until next 2 weeks with that few hundreds.
Some more Alice treated me KFC today while i tried to skip my lunch for money.
Somehow i feel so cheap.
People always wanted to treat me when i want to skip my meal.
i feel so hurt in my dignity. i mean it is nice of them
but i really dun want to be this way. =(
Always want to share my problems but sometimes just too hard.

Yilong- own problem to settle as well FYP messed up-.-
Michelle-no free incoming -.-
William-full of craps and crabs-.-
Kovida-blur mokey-.-
Alice- TOTALLY full of craps and crabs >.<
Sulaiman-Always dun answer phone and now NS -.-
Marcus-now NS
Ron- a bit hard to communicate-.-
Chinlim- NO way!
Mum - no point talking to her -.-

In the end, I vomit blood and die >.<

2 bloody fun and fruitful day =D

2008-08-31T23:22:00.004+08:00

Day 1
Basically i haven been working like a retarded since my papers ends.
I finally have to time to make my PDL (Provisional Driving License) which allows me to learn how to drive. I also did call up the instructor.
Sadly, the instructor said he will help me book the test date and arrange my first lesson after i come back from Malaysia.
But he haven book yet and i still need to wait until i come back T_T
Yup..
So finally we get the chance to catch a movie on Thursday morning.
We went to Shaw house to watch "Mad about English"
Initially i though is very funny to that extent that they are mocking the Chinese's English.
Hmm, true enough it is very funny.
But there is many things that is so touching that i almost cry lor.
The Chinese are trying so best to learn English despite a lot of hardship.
That is really something that we can learned from.
After that, we *squeeze squeeze* in a small corner to eat.
Then , we do some window shopping here and there and end up eating Ice-creams.
Finally took a bus and went back to work with Sulaiman.
That dumb dumb Yilong went and rent a car at bloody midnight.
Initially was so worry for him and decided to follow him with Kovida and William.
He drove me and michelle and sulaiman back home and fetch Kovida and william first.
Then he came back and fetch me and then we decided to go Bukit Timah to eat.

Day 2
At 12 am like that, we reach there and eat lor.
Then decided to go take the PIE expressway to anyhow go. lol
By then i was quite tired liao =(
Not bad lor , I manage to direct Yilong to Changi Village without using any direction equipment lor!!
But Kovida also did use the street directory.
That means that i got sense of Direction !!! haha (self-proclaim)
Seriously, during the journey, i was really a bit sad.
Why i dun have to confidence to go register last time?
I keep waiting, hoping some one can go with me.
I know I know.. such a loser that needs someone to accompany everything i do.
I guess this is just the way i am. Haix haix.
Anywhere, we reach Changi Village beach around 3am.
So i decided to give the car a try and drive around the car park.
William went off first and give everyone a shock.
The car dashed in front and stopped immediately.
He give up.lol
Then it was my turn.
Starting, i was quite confused as i really forgot all my theory..lol
But i manage to drive off and turn several rounds( the engine die off quite a few times because i step on wrong things also.)
William was tempted and want to drive again.
Shit him..lol
I was unknowingly standing in front of the car and he hit into me.
Lol..fortunately it stopped right after it hit my little finger.-.-
Sadly the car cannot be started because we play too much liao.
We asked for some fisherman help and end up pushing the car -.-
It was then realized that the car did not have enough petrol and we drove off to get some petrol lor.
After that we drove to back all the way to West Coast Car Park and eat breakfast.
We rest in the car then.
Feeling tempted, i tried the car again..lol
Then went back to Yilong 's house to drive his sister to school.
We took PIE again as her school is at Simei.zz
There is quite a few times we almost get into accident due to those ruthless drivers.
Finally we went back to Clementi again.
Kovida was so tired that he went back home sleep first.
Then they throw me at Michelle's house carpark and i waited them for 4 hours!!!!
They went back to secondary school for secondary school. =(
After that we go pick Michelle up and go drive around and eat and return the car.
Haha
Then then!!! i went to work..
so hell tired lor...but quite a fun 2 days =D

HAPPY TIME!

2008-08-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

Exam Period
Haha!!Pardon me for not blogging for a while !
I have been so busy with my examinations.
I hope i really can score well because i really did put in a lot of effort.
Hmm. 8 days of fierce "chionging" and i barely sleep 3 hours a day.
Ironically, i wasn't studying.
I was watching like at least 5 hours of "D gray man" and play 1 hour of games and i think 8 to 10 hours of studying and slacking for the rest.
That anime was so awfully addictive that i watch at least 10 episode per day even during my exam period.
The exam timetable is a bit messed up.It was first paper is in the late afternoon and the next paper is in the following early morning.
I have to wake up like 4 am to study all the way till i go to school.
I drank like at least 3 cups of coffee on these nights. X_X
I was actually quite glad that i wasn't brain dead and manage to know almost all the answers.
Oh ya one more thing to add..
Those questions are demanding that one part can cost up to 20 marks and i have to write until my right hand cramped.-.-
My newly bought pen's ink was reduced to like one quarter full at the end of my last paper..-.-

Good Start

2008-08-16T00:25:00.002+08:00

Hooyay!
Today's paper was quite easy!
I was so afraid back then because they are so many things to memorize (8 chapters ,each chapters has at least 3 sectors need to memorize)
I swear my memories are deteriorating. I take so long to memorize one point and forget them after flipping through -.-
Fortunately i know how to answer all the questions but i simply lack of time!
One question can costs up to 25 marks -.-
I have to write as fast as possible unable my hand hurts -.-
I simply hate examinations.
Not that i have to study so much but is soo damn lonely to study alone.
I always left alone to study while my parents were asleep.
Hate those feelings for years and i just cant get through these.
Nevertheless, I hope it going to end fast and i shall proceed to my planning of activities ^^
4 more papers to go.. (T_T)
tomorrow is yilong driving test !!!
Shall pray for him to PASS!!!
haix..i still need to wait for 4 to 6 months.
Such a loser. =(

lol

MY LOVE!

2008-08-11T22:34:00.006+08:00

Since i got nothing better to do, i want to show everyone my LOVED Ladies!

1,STELLA from Gundam Seed Destiny

2. Hinata from Naruto

3. Misa Amane from Deate Note

The actress is much much NICER!!

Closing Stages of Projects

2008-08-11T21:29:00.006+08:00

Great!!
Finally projects are over. really OVER.
Feel disgusted and apprehensive when come to think about it.
I have to rush my a 30 page report and a presentation on Sunday.
Thought my team is officially made up of 4 persons including me, yet it is 3 person unknowingly.
Though Robin only did quite a few pages for the reports, but he did came out with lots of unusual ideas.
Paul has been doing most of the report and his Ang Mo is so good lor.
I have also been writing most of the report and compiling all of them including the powerpoints.
The most problematic guy whose name not to be mentioned in case i get sued, has been doing the least of the least. Though he has been trying to do, yet it is really a last minute work and no effort is shown at all.
Paul has been editing ALL of that XXX 's parts for the report.
The 3 of us have been staying at as late as 6am EVERYDAY to finalize everything and wake up at around 9 am to go school for presentation,yes it is truly a unhealthy lifestyle but no choice.
I was so angry then, yet trying my best to show a emotionless face to him.
Most of my parts in reports are given to him to present and he gain the credits. :(
Too bad i am not that type of person who knows how to communicate or present but i really did my best and Batna said i have improved a lot since year 1 ^^
We stand up to ourselves by marking him down or in other words ,to fail him.
Me and robin gave him a barely pass for one of the modules and did not hand up our peer evaluation form for the rest.
While Paul simply failed him everything.
Yes , it true everyone is displease with him but I still have my sympathy for him.
On Monday, we came to an agreement that we should kick him out of the group and we still give him the reports to do his presentation on his own.
So, we sat down and settle like a man.
We told him the problem lies in him and not us.
He tried every hard to excused himself ,pushed the blames and bringing up personal issues.
Finally, he asked us to give him the rest of the tasks.
Somehow there is no longer the trust in him but we still give him the final chance.
The tutors knew what happen and ask us to re-evaluate him after giving some other things for him to do.
In fact, i was glad that he is able to be still part of the group or he will already failed all his modules. Though i am unhappy with his work and attitude and enduring his nonsenses , but i dun want to push him to the corner as well, afterall , we are classmates for 3 years.
On the very last of my presentation, i really feel like letting out my tears, my suffering was finally over. But i controlled la!of cos!!!
All right! Things are finally over but now i have to prepared for exams =(
HAIX.

This is some my my beautiful creation for one of my projects.

HOHOHO!
So proud of myself!

2008-07-27T20:15:00.001+08:00

Finally all my modules are ended and left the revisions lectures and projects.
So decided to upload my project video into the you tube.Enjoy =D

Panda

2008-07-27T01:45:00.001+08:00

(dots...............)

State of Extortion

2008-07-27T00:57:00.004+08:00

Tuesday

Presented my IB project in my class.
We were expected to wear formal and it turns out to be our group is to one and only who wore formal.Then went to NTUC to find yilong and wrote my leave form.
Unexpectedly, Da jie told us to inform everyone to write the forms asap.
We were expectedly her to act like a psycho and scream around.haha
Went back home and was intended to study for my theory test.
However, I end up doing my WISP video.
I was totally engulfed into my fury as i could not do a proper one.
The programme hang itself serveral times.
Frustrated, annoyed, blasting . I still continue do it.
The time was 11pm, I still have not start flipping the book.
12am, i started off my very first page and read all the way to 3am.

Wednesday

Tried to wake up at 9 but my eyes were just too heavy.
Finally, woke up at 11am and continue my revision.
I was totally demoralize by what my mum said.
" Come out NS then learn how to drive ma. Now also got no car for you to drive.Huh. No money still want to learn. Anyhow spend money."
Sadden by such hurtful words.
Everything i do are only to be commented by them and not encouraged by them.
Every actions, thoughts, movements are heavily criticized by their words.
They always..always..compare me with others.
Even though i try the best out of me. I still failed to gain recognition from them.
Try to learn how to play keyboard. But was misunderstood to spend my money unwisely.
i guess locking myself in my tiny room is the best solution yet not the lasting one.
Anyway, back to my final theory. I was really prepared to final as i was quite tedious and could not think logically.
Fortunately , i passed =)

Thursday
Went to went at 5 pm after my lesson.
Feeling very unwell.
My eyes were very uncomfortable and was very red.
I feel like my eyes were pressured by the surrounding.
Sulaiman took me to take a rest but i stubbornly continued :p
Feeling better and better.
Then help Alice to take her 2 bags of clothes home.
The lame part was she still called Shan Zhu to come down and still..-.-
And that Shan Zhu drew me a panda.-.-'

Friday
The most fearful day of the month.
Alice invited me to join her to eat Mac after work.
She drew $30 and asked Michelle and her brother to buy while both of us waited.
Food came and blah blah blah.
Both of them realized that $10 was gone.
Alice asked michelle and her bro madly.
Eventually michelle turns out answering in tears.
I was really speechless. Almost everyone was looking over here.
I tried to took out my $10 and put it on the floor to create a false scene.
But i dun have a $10 note -.-
This is not the first time i see her crying as she can tears while too overjoyed.
But this time , I can see it REAL.
Those dripping tears were like voicing out, "i am accused ,sad ,scare and innocent."
Great. one of my ultimate fears is this type of crying.-.-
I do not know who to help.
Her brother was angered and went straight home.
but Michelle pretended to find the money and give her back $10 which is her own money.
Kept quiet throughout when walk back with them.
afraid to utter any wrong words .
This is the second time i see Alice so fierce.
It was totally different when you see her working.
Just like split personality .
Sometimes, i really dunno it human nature to ague small matters or whatever.
I also dunno how to handle this kind of situations. Right or wrong. is hard to tell.
Just like i am unsure if i am saying a joke or mocking people or being retarded.
Some people can be quite serious about it.
It is also a bit hurting when people detest your jokes when you try to entertain them.
haix..life is a never easy road to walk with.

Oh My Milk!

2008-07-21T00:33:00.004+08:00

Alright.
I have just finished my Personal Reflection letter and Bp report.
Not even half way though.
Slacking now.
Went to you tube and accidentally found my previous video which uploaded 2 years ago.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AranCTworqY
Basically this video was part of my group presentation last year.
I did video from 12am to 7am and presented it on that day.LOL
It was very tedious but a great achievement for myself too =D

Just a little bit updates.
Marcus' birthday falls on 15th of July and eventually i did not celebrate with you.
I am really SORRY =(
7 years of friendship, 0 presents, 0 celebration.
Marcus!! Forgive me ultimate sinfulness!
I swear i will recompense in any other ways once i am free.

Everyone whom i aware off is facing very problematic setbacks with their project mates.
I assume the best to comfort them is to give a good example of myself.LOL
Even so, i have been emphasizing to them not to give up!
Act "retardedly" in front of them just to cheer them up.
Hope everyone is able to pass through this and next month.
Going to organize countless of activities for them =D

Just a word for that particular person which i DUN LIKE.
" Grow up and change your attitude before you want others to respect you."
Okay done. Time to drink milk.
Talking about milk. I have been trying very hard to cut down on my consumption of milk.
That Shan zhu said that this can lead to growing of stones in kidney.
Oh Great. My source of motivation, "the holy milk", is destroyed -.-

Please bury me a grave!

2008-07-19T01:18:00.002+08:00

22 July (Tuesday), 2-4pm : IB Project Presentation

23 July (Wednesday) 4.30-5.30pm : Final Theory Test

24 July (Thursday) - Submission of Personal reflection on WISP(min 500 words)
Submission of Portfolio

25 July (Friday) - IPD Assignment 2 (2500 words), 5pm

28 July (Monday) - BOF Assignment 2( 15 pages), 5pm, BP Revision Lecture Part 1

30 July (Wednesday) - BOF Presentation, 4pm

1 August (Friday) - FBM Assignment 2(10 pages), 5pm

4 August (Monday) - BP Assignment 2(30 pages), 5pm; FBM Presentation, BP Revision Lecture Part 2

6 August (Wednesday) - BP & IPD Integrated Presentation, 11am-1pm

PLS
PLS
PLS
Kill me.
By all means.

Dead Beat Adam!

2008-07-15T22:18:00.002+08:00

Arhh!!!
My headache strike again.
Haven been sleeping these few days.
Keep practicing the keyboard and slept at around 2 to3 am-.-
The music notes have been spinning around me. Feel like giving up sometimes.
Grhh. I NEED PATIENCE!!
Then have to wake up earlier around 7.30 than before to have breakfast with batna in school.
Less than 4 hours of sleep.
No choice, promised to eat with him everyday.
But eventually i was always late. SORRY BATNA!

I was lucky to pass my basic theory test.
It was a last minute revision though.
Thankfully, i ended up myself in Bukit Gombak and not Bukit batok as i have misinterpret these 2 places last time.
On top of that, i was really lucky to have my final theory test next week!!
An average person should at least take a month to have his final while i only have one week!
Muhaha!

That shan zhu finally publicize her livejournal's link.
She has drawn been drawing Panda over the place.-.-
Never mind about that because i have take my revenge..muahaha

Yilong and William came to my school just now.
Apparently that William wasn't paying attention to our conversion.
He was screening all over the place for NP girls-.-
No choice and brought him to the "OurSpace"(a study place) and library to satisfy his "needs"
Brought them to the toilet which i always hide too ^_^
After that, we went and play pool and lan gaming.
Came back home try to practice keyboard again.
Increase my headache more.lol
Initially i want to pon school tomorrow.
But i was called by my project mate to go school for project consulting.
It is an compulsory extra module and has absolutely no link to my business course.
I HATE THIS MODULE.
*Bang the wall*

Pillar of support

2008-07-14T23:18:00.002+08:00

On Saturday night, Ron and Marcus came to my house.
Always feel excited when my friends come and staying over.
Unfortunately, Marcus was asleep after donating his blood while i was chatting with Ron.
He woke up in the middle of the night and joined in the conversation.
Sometimes, how i wish someone or anybody else can always be my side.
Definitely i dun mean "gayness" or something like that.
Over the years, i always sleep alone, play alone, study alone and blah blah blah.
Even occasionally i have to resolve talking to myself and my mum was so shocked and asked me to stop that habit.
I also try to convince myself that i can buy something that i like and always "play" with it.
Hand phone, computer, psp and every soft toys.
Lol..sorry about the soft toy..but that was when i am young.
But they neither have mouth to talk to me nor have a brain or heart can feel.
Nevertheless, i guess i still have my friends who are always supporting me.
Yilong , Michelle, Marcus, Ron, William, Sulaiman, William and kovida...............
They are just like my pillar of support.
Thanks guys...
I guess the only thing i can repay them is doing anything and everything?
Haha...

To live in grief, or to live in Bliss? Is your choice.

2008-07-11T01:32:00.004+08:00

All right!
It has been a week that i never been blogging.
Recently i was quite stress up with all the projects.
Especially when things do not come quite right in the family.
Just bought a keyboard last sat.
It costs me $388 T_T
But i really enjoy myself playing the music i want to play.
Sadly, i was still struggling to learn how to read the notes.
Thanks to Sulaiman, i guess i know a little bit what i want myself to be.
He said this,
" i always make people laugh, but you make me laugh. I like it!"
" You are irritating, But funny!"
"You are one crazy bas****"
Hearing these sentences, i feel a sense of achivement.
I guess this is what i wanted.
Making people laugh makes me happy too.
But at the same time, I am emtionally touched as i feel happy to make someone happy.
What said by alice and yilong was right after all.
"In life, we are either sad or happy. Why don't we fill ourselves with happiness?"
But somehow, it is quite hard to execute such things.
MOst probably, i still have long way to go and many things to learn.=D
One learning point for me that i had came out with:"To live in grief, or to live in Bliss? Is your choice."
Now, i shall be everyone's happy fruit.
LOL, i think this only works out with my colleagues in the end.

A better tommorow

2008-06-30T22:32:00.002+08:00

Today, I skipped my school to do my projects.
As usual, Everyone will start calling me and sms me once i skipped school.
Disrupted my sleep only.
Fortunately, I was blessed enough to sleep until 2pm.Lol.
Mindset was to do project but eventually i was watching anime and blocked all my projectmates in my msn.
Finally i finished my PDM and IB half-way.
3 presentations and 1 report to be submitted by this week.
I really dunno how am i going to survive this month.
I guess i have thrown everything and concentrate on my keyboard!haha
I was watching Grade 9 Piano players playing some gundams songs in the Youtube.
Totally Amazed by the way they move their hands smoothly.
Wondering when will i become like them? haha
Anyway, i was really afraid these few days.
I guess i think too much after all.
I dunno why, do i have some six sense or something?
Whatever i dreamed tends to appear in the reality.
Whenever i come across something, i remember i saw or did it before.
Images appear in my mind which follows exactly how what i saw in reality.
I hope it was just a coincidence.
Sometimes, i really just want to have my eyes close, and enjoy myself in my own dreamland consciously.Isn't it what everyone wants?

Emails are dangerous

2008-06-29T22:55:00.002+08:00

Celebrated Sulaiman's birthday yesterday.
It was a surprise successful celebration which almost ruined by some people whose
name not to be mentioned.
We cant tell what is his motive is but i guess it does not benefit in both sides.
But finally, the plan was still triumph.
We went to Michelle's house to make the bomb.
Well, out of curiosity i tried to learn to play basic keyboard song. It was really harder than i thought. Then we proceed to plan after that.
The ambusement started off under his house whereby we are well-hidden and had equipped ourselves with the water bomb.
We waited for his arrival.
He dashed towards the lift as he was afraid being bombed. But still, we managed to surround him.
He wanted to run up to stairs, but we are not stupid enough to have Michelle and her brother at the stairs.
Bang bang bang.
Water bombs flew from all over his direction.Victory is Ours.haha
Come back home with a smile.
Smile turn upside down after reading all the mails.
Same old things, those mails are from project mates who finished off their part already.
Those kind of feeling was like ," Hey you! i have finished my part already! you still haven!!"
I really dunno how to pass through this month.
Deadlines are scattered all over the weeks.
Maybe the best solution is just take a knife and slash through the throat?
Haha...
Just kidding.

2008-06-25T21:54:00.002+08:00

I really hate this.
Those people keep chasing for the projects.
Have to complete so many projects right after the Vietnam trip.
Life wasn't meant to be easy i guess.
Sometimes, i really wish i can stop worrying about all these and feel with freedom.
Irritating IRRITATING!!!
Stress STRESS!!!

Back from Vietnam

2008-06-24T20:44:00.002+08:00

I was lucky that i came back to Singapore alive.
A series of jokes and event happened in Vietnam.
I guess i have made myself quite a few friends down there.haha
Shall blog about it another day.
Currently i am loaded with all 7 projects.
This is really too much to handle.
Haix.
I dun feel like moving, dun feel like thinking.
I just want to sleep and sleep.
YAWN

Vietnam Trip Day 1

2008-06-16T23:27:00.002+08:00

I was really glad to have my collegues accompany me till now.
Even i was to go to vietnam for less than a week,
but Yilong and Kovida willingly to send me to Changi Airport.
At the same time, Marcus and ronaldo gave me a warm sms.
It was kind of touching when friends did such a simple action like smses.
Went to clement to meet up with both of them.
Eventually ended up many people saying goodbye to me..haha
We took Mrt and taxi to Changi Airport -.-
No direct train to terminal 1..haix
Kovida and Yilong were a bit shocked to see how my classmates were.
In the end i stay up with them till 4 am and join back my classmates.
It was 6.30am.
Everyone checked in except for our boss, Hogan.
He was really late.
Everyone was sort of mounting their anger.
Fortunely he came and everyone aboard the plane.
I was really disappointed by the "budget airlines" that our school provided us.
The seats were so small and i could hardly move.
I could not see the outside view as well.
Those "wings" of the place were blocking my view.
Finally we arrived at Vietnam at around 8.30am.
We have our breakfast and i start to realise there were so many "zombies"
Haha..i guess we were too tired and sleepy afterall.
So we went and check in to our hotel and blah blah blah.
We went to some industrial park and come back for dinner.
Went a short shopping after that and came back to hotel.
Now, almost everyone went to massage except me =D
Blogging in the room alone..
HAHA
Done for Day 1..hohoho

Sporty Day

2008-06-06T23:26:00.002+08:00

Wee!!
I have created the ultimate recipe called the Eggy milk!!
All you have to do is to put one fresh egg into a boiling milk!
Simple as that!
Try it with other beverages such as milo!
It may be seem sickening but it is a must try for milk-lovers =D
Anyway, today went to play badminton with yilong, Michelle and William.
It was so fun!
We did so many cute* stunts.
For example, i tried to return the hit to william and hit yilong's racket and bounce back to me in a #3vs1 match. LOL!!!
The 4 of us fall onto the ground and laugh like mad instantly.
Fortunately this does not capture any attentions from those professional badminton players.
While resting, we saw these 2 young kids were actually being taught and trained to play badminton. Impressive!!
Eventually we still make a total defeat to William in that 3vs1 handicapped match.
So embarrassing -.-
I was suffering from heavy damage on my right legs when trying to cover for yilong and michelle.
Not till i reach home and saw 2 big swollen bruise on my kneel cap and right butt.LOL
It was tired but fun =D

2008-06-04T16:42:00.002+08:00

Knowing more than you suppose to know can give you burden.
Sometimes, you may accidentally say the wrong things while actually think the other way.
Our actions and thoughts cannot exactly bring out the messages that we want to tell them in our mind which may create many misunderstandings.
Nevertheless, Things have been quite step down a little bit while more to be arise.
I think having someone stabbed deep inside your heart is actually a tearful experience but it can be a lesson learned. Everyone does not learn until they suffer the consequences by their actions. This is how life works, i guess.
I guess is a bad and good experience for me all these times.
By the way, i think i have the ability to think how others think.
Just like i feel like i am a psychologists.
Damn, i should have study psychology instead of business studies.
haaha!

A Creation of Beautiful Moments

2008-05-25T23:39:00.003+08:00

Alright, back to my bloggy again.
As usual, lets recap everything to 23 of May again.
Yup, it was Michelle's birthday.
But on the night before that day, i was rushing my reports and slept at 3am.
So, i skipped one of my tutorial so gain back my sleeping time the next day.Hehe.
Rush down to meet up with Yilong after school at around 2pm.
We prepare everything and went off to Clementi Woods.
Like what i always said, i think i tend to predict the future. muhaha
Somehow , when we were walking to our target area in Clementi Woods,
I have a strong feeling that there would be someone there and I told this to Yilong.
Well, It was indeed that my prediction was right.
There were 2 lesbians down there doing their "business".
A second later, a man was walking towards the seat.
We took a glance on him.
A normal human will definitely give a glance on that man,right?
This mentally-unstable guy shouted like this,"See what see? Want to fight arh? LAI LA!!"
I and Yilong look blankly at each other, thinking he was talking to someone else.
However, he walked to the other side and sit down which is quite near the "lesbians".
We waited, hoping they will go away.
I called Marcus to come to the place as soon as possible, hoping for a backup.
But, that dim-witted guy continue,"talk louder lah!i am not scare!"
The "lesbian" was rooted with fear and went off.
This time i was a bit pissed off.
Then he stood up and walked towards us.
I was prepare to take the long wooden pole near me and warp him.(thats the violent side of me)
Sadly, he walked off =(

The setting part came in once Marcus arrived.
Initially, Everyone set up their own word.
Yilong made the "Happy", i made the "birthday" and Marcus made the "Michelle".
But, It was turn out to be very disorganized.
And so we concentrate on one word(Birthday) together.
It took us almost as hour to set up just one "Birthday" word.
This is because we ran up to the stairs constantly to check up the words.
It was very tiring and energy-burning.
Finally we finished.
We took a short rest and continue on the word "happy".
Time was running short and we ran out of candles -.-''
Yilong went and bought more candles and cups.
Marcus and I put water into the cups, going up and down the stairs.
It was already dark and we only manage to finished off except for the pig head.
We started to adjust the cups and slowing form into the head.
Suddenly a call from william saying that Michelle was very nearby!
We were so scare and sent Marcus to look out.
Then he came back reporting that she was at the playground with her friends.
We called Felicia to accompany her and make sure she would not come near out place.
At 10.30pm, We started to light up 500 candles.
Unskillfully, we burned our fingers while trying to light up those candles with lighter.
Finally , it was done and it was really beautiful.
The 3 of us were very satisfied with our results.
Then yilong and i rush to the playground to invite them.

Everyone arrived at there.
(William , Joanna, Kovida, Michelle, Michelle's mum, Felicia,Michelle's brothers and 2 unknown friends)
We brought them to our candles place.
On the way up the hill, they keep complaining and asking where are we going -.-
Finally, everyone were so shocked to see that.
We showed Michelle our present(violin).
I was cursing her to cry!!
But she didn't but was only speechless and shocked. =(
Finally we have our picnic and enjoy the view at the same time.
Michelle got cheated by my story telling as i was trying to buy others time to get ready to throw flour on her.MUhaha!
Finally, i did the submission by pouring water on her!
Ya! She was covered with dough! =D
We were having so much fun.Everyone was covered in flour.=D
That Michelle went and changed her clothes after that.
As you can see, i dun allow anyone to get home clean.
Thanks to kovida, i manage to put glitters onto her head!
Hohoho!
Haix, happiness always have its ending.
After everything, we clean up the whole mess and candles.
I took a cab home. T_T
the next day, i was having a body ache and it was still ongoing =(
I think is because running too much stairs.
However, I received sms by the girls complaining that they wash their hair several times and
cannot wash off the dough!
Muahah
I was so proud of my organizing skills.
Though there were some fault there, but overall it was a success.
Must really thanks yilong and Marcus too =D
SUCCESS SURPRISE FOR OUR BIRTHDAY GIRL.

Exhilaration

2008-05-22T12:40:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG!
Tomorrow is that baka aunty's birthday.
We have been waiting for this day with excitement and anticipation.
Going to make her cry like a baby.
MUhaha.
Her mum told me that Wee Yang is chasing her now.
I was laughing like crazy.
Initially was William, then kovida ,then Horng Yunn, and now Christ and Wee Yang.
Gosh, this show is really getting exciting.
By the way, it seem that my ex-secondary classmates started to play maple again.
Why?
Thanks to the private server which can lvl up to 100 per day.
This is crazy.
Last time it took me 2 months to reach to lvl 50 and now barely 3 hours to lvl 100.
Hohoho.

The World is DYING!

2008-05-19T13:19:00.003+08:00

Grrh!!!
I hate to use to this word.But..
What the fuck is going on with this world?
Few days ago, i saw the news reporting about the Earthquake in China.
Initially i thought is was not a big deal as long as it does not affect me.
After reading the newspaper, My tears almost fall out la!
I was really really touched by the actions from these people.
That is this mum who hug her baby in order to protect her baby.
Eventually the mum was crashed by the rocks and fortunately the baby survived.
The rescuers manage to save the baby and saw a sms on the mum's phone
It was like this ," Child,if you are still alive, remember that i love you"
DAMN, i almost cried out !! IDIOT.
Watch anime also can cry, watch tv also can cry, now read newspaper also almost tear out!
Gosh, is this world really coming to an end?
Is God trying to banish this world ultimately?
Or he is just trying to test how unite is human?!
Come on!!! Is life !!
There is almost 10k of people died!
I think Sulaiman is really right.
He said that we still able to survive in this world.
But as for the next generation, it is difficult to say.
Can humans really going survive or will be going to extinct just like the dinosour period?
Will miracle happen?
Or someone is going to descend from the sky and save the world just like Jesus?
Our mother Earth is really dying! D:

2008-05-18T22:05:00.002+08:00

Gosh..
I have pimples on my left side of my face!
Grhh, Keep playing slapping war with that dumb Michelle.
I guess her hands are so dirty that that leave me side effect after slapping me.
Hoho, my hand phone bill has drop down noticeably ^.^
Just update regarding last Sunday,I bought a watch for my mum.
It was a bless that i did not sell my psp to buy that watch for her.
Come on! It is my wife after all! hehe
Yaya, this is the very first time i bought her something.
Have been really busy with my projects,works and whatsoever it is.
Feel so regret every time when i reject Marcus' and Ron's invitation me for their activities.
Shall make it up to them one day.
Feeling so excited for Michelle's birthday!
I want to see her cry like a baby!!!
MUHAHA.
I am so evil.

A fright

2008-05-14T00:54:00.003+08:00

Last Saturday, I went with yilong to buy a violin for that Baka.
Hoho, finally i have the time to go and buy her a present.
Came back home with excitement and curiosity.
I was to eager to test that violin if i have to potential to be a violinist.
I was almost killed by heart attack when i couldn't make a single noise out of it.
I still remembered i make so much noise with her rented violin easily,
and now i couldn't even make a mosquito noise!
I try to contact Yilong several times but failed.
I did some research on internet and finally came to a conclusion.
The reason is not my lack of skill or the violin is spoiled.
BUT,i have glide the rosin up and down the bow hairs before playing the violin.
OMG, that was so stupid.
No wonder, i was thinking why in the world the rosin was doing in the violin package.
Ultimately, i learned something new =D

Adam is Dead.

2008-05-08T23:29:00.002+08:00

Last Sat, Marcus And Ronaldo came my house.
It has been a while that we have not been "gaying" around in each other's houses.
As Usual, we have endless topics to chat about.Blah and Blah BRA!
Marcus and Ron have grown a lot more mature than the last time i saw them.
One important point that was mentioned by Marcus was :"The old Marcus is dead".
Eventually they also spotted that i have changed a lot since the breakdown of my relationship.
In fact, I really wished that tell them,"Adam is already dead long time."
The murderer is none other than her which i dun wish to mention her name.
But i just dun want them to worry for me and acted like normal.
Unfortunately, they tried to convince me to go to church and 'enlighten' me.
Subsequently, i rejected them a lot of times because i was really busy.
Somehow, they thought that i no longer want to get into relationship because of my past.
I guess because of that, they thought that i had became a "evil" person.
Seriously i know exactly what am i doing now is just that i am just too afraid.
This question has been bought up several times by my other friends regarding
why i dun want to get into relationship.
As i always said, i really scare.too scare. totally numb about relationship.
It really took me long time to recover and i dun wan to see another failure again.
I just want FREEDOM!!
hahhaha!!
One holy advice for for everyone around me.
"Think before you do!!!"

God
I pray that everyone around me will eventually
find their true loved ones without ending up like me.

Amen.

2008-05-06T17:45:00.002+08:00

Lets see.
Back to my blogger again.
It was glad that i did not hide in the toilets.
Lets rewind back fews days back and even few weeks back.
Haix, I was recently really irritated by few people whom some i cannot mention their names =D.
Yesterday i had a tremendous fall from my bike.
hmm, why do i use the word "tremendous"?
hohoho ,this is because through it was a tragic fall but somehow i did not injure myself badly,
only few scratches on my left hand and right leg.
Reason behind this?
hmm, I was cycling with yilong to Clementi Woods, trying to find some secret hideout where we
can create a spectacular memories and birthday celebration for Auntie Michelle.
I was drained out by my WEIGHTY BAG( my lecture notes and the equipments!!!)
And so decided to pass it to yilong to carry for me.
He was stunned when he took the bag. Hehe* understandable.
As you can see, I love to do free-hand when riding because it was so entertaining to do so.
That yilong had nothing better to do and hold onto my bike's head.
Eventually, i was not so skilled enough to hold the balance and eventually i fall off.
Lol, he was so guilty.
Then I told yilong that Michelle was really lucky to have brothers like us.
Because of planning for her birthday, we search her present and injure my legs and also get some unexpected surprise from the cops( to be mentioned later part)..
HAha...but of cause i did not blame them at all.
Adam is not a petty boy okay? =D

Dreams

2008-04-30T13:25:00.003+08:00

According to wikipedia,
the definition of "Dream" is images, thoughts and feelings experienced while asleep, particularly strongly associated with rapid eye movement sleep.
And also a "daydream" is a visionary fantasy experienced while awake, especially one of happy, pleasant thoughts, hopes, or ambitions.

I guess sometimes i tend to daydream a lot more than anyone else.
I can really imagine myself as one of the main character in any anime that i have watched and
created that image to be myself and save the people around me.Or i should say i daydream being a hero.HAHA
I know that is unusual but thats the fact -.-

But sometimes back to reality, I asked myself if anyone can be a hero?
Of course i am not talking about the "Super Hero Movie".
Finally i think i come to a conclusion.
A hero does not necessarily need bring a sword or gun and go about killing the bad guy.
But from what i know in this society, a simple thing known as "knowledge" or "intelligence" is good enough to "kill" many people.

Take for example our NTUC's adversary(Mr Kenny), suddenly sms me and indirectly declared a cold war on us.
Nevertheless, i confronted him with my "professional" English! LOL
I guess he dun even understand what am i talking about and eventually end the conversion himself.

Suddenly, i feel that is a urge to upgrade myself and equip myself with knowledge.
But sometimes, i am just too lazy to do a simple task like reading a book...HAHA

Just something additional, everyone has dreams. As for me, i want to be modern hero with intelligence.LOL. Just like what the FF7 Angeal always said " Embrace your dreams with honor"
=D

Finally

2008-04-28T02:43:00.002+08:00

The time now is 2.46am on 28 of April.I have finally changed my blogskin.So refreshing now :D

All the chalet photos which I,Michelle and Kovida had organised.
It just a small summary =D
http://s307.photobucket.com/albums/nn281/s10037674/Chalet/

Start of school

2008-04-24T13:00:00.002+08:00

Went back to school reluctantly during the first day.
Cannot endure seeing so many people there.
I told myself not to mess up anything especially my GPA.
Aiming for at least a 3.0 grade for this semester.
Now i am specialize in Entrepreneurship& Marketing.
Compare to last year, the amount of people was to be found lesser in lectures.
Mainly they were are scattered throughout other courses.
I dunno whether is sad or happy to announce that Hogan,robin and "butt"na are in the same course.
As for the girls, they went into services.
First week was only coverage of lectures and nothing else.
Was Forcing myself and stay awake and to pay attention to the lecturers.

Next, some to weekends, which is my most favorite days where i can get to see my colleagues again.
Due to the lack of bike, i borrow my bike to kovida and took michelle's bro's smallest bike.
It was really really small but easy to cycle.
I was playing around with it and stop suddenly to create the "Err" sound on the bike.
The most funniest thing i shouted, " kA NA KU NIN, TELEVISION,NEWSPAPER AND RADIO" together with the "err" sound from the bike.
My colleagues were laughing like mad.

Back to school on the second week.
2 hours of break on Monday really drained out my soul.
However, i went to wini's lecture for fun and slept inside.
Then went to canteen with the rest for a short while.
After that ,I went for class thinking that i was going to be late.
Unfortunately, the class was postpone to 1 hour late.
Sadly i dunno what to do in that 1 hour.
Finally, history repeated itself again, A TOILET HIDEOUT.
I still remember i went to hide in toilet in year 1 everyday as i came to school too early.
Now i have to wait in toilet for 1 hour.
I know it was a bit unwise thing to do but seriously i really nowhere to stay.
Ultimately spent my 1 hour playing psp , sitting on the toilet bowl =D
School really sucks..
Maybe i just dun like the other side of me when i am in school (too quiet and timid), likewise i am so retarded in my working place.
Simply dun understand why i was like that...

Un...Unforgiven Tears

2008-04-16T23:32:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i am back into blog again.
I had deleted some of the past entries.Refuse to look into the past.
I guess i have 99% stopped looking into past and have move on.
Seriously,I need to change my blog skin.
This skin simply bought too much unhealthy memories.
Marcus!!Need your help again!haha

Went back to Malaysia for around 2 weeks.
This is the shortest period i ever stayed.
Back then, I simply don't know why my heart was here but physical body was there.
I guess all my friends are here.
I got the first and worst birthday celebration from my family.
They invited everyone to my house.
Whether they are relatives, cousins, friends and unknown person, i still afraid of talking to them.
They came and ate the food and went off without even knowing is my birthday!!
Thanks to my mum for not telling them, afraid that they will buy present for me.
Finally we bought up the cake on the table.
This was the most embarrassing moment of my life!
No one is willing to sing birthday songs because they have no idea what is going on.
They were forcefully singing it and the worst the the song was sang half-way.
This was really a unspeakable for me.

Finally back in Singapore.
On Sunday,i was working with Michelle.
The atmosphere was very strange.
I suspected something was going on.
"Is it a surprise celebration from them?"
Nevertheless it was even more suspicious when we went for dinner.
I guess my strong observation is my advantage, especially that Michelle's acting was too fake.
But all the way the end of work, nothing really happen and we suggested to go for cycling.
I already forgot what was going on until that yilong gave me a bike key.
I finally understand the whole thing.
They bought me a bike.
It was really nice.
My heart was really heavy that time.I guess i was touched.HAHA.
I wanted to say the word "thanks a lot", but i was really speechless.
Everyone was looking at my face,anticipating my next reaction.
But I really don't know what to do,only stare at that bike.
Then we went to cycle round and round after the carpark.
Finally i parked it at Michelle's house.
Seriously, i was really blessed to have them all along.
Really hope that bonds is always there...

too be continued.......

2008-03-11T00:38:00.002+08:00

Weehoo!
Tml will be going to chalet and therefore will not be updating.
SOOO many things to write!
Hahaa
I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!

2008-02-28T20:07:00.002+08:00

Today, I am seriously incensed and pissed off by some people.
Yesterday, xxxx1 said he had no money so he dun want to go chalet.
Then today another xxxx2 smsed that it had broken toes dun want to come.
Then another xxxx3 smsed that if xxxx2 dun come then xxxx3 also dun want to come.
Seriously, I know i have to blame myself for ps*ing them so many times.
But, this time is so different.
Last time, everyone keeps saying "Can someone book a chalet during March to celebrate our birthdays?"
Finally, after 2 years, Wini made an affect to book this chalet.
Intially, they said they are okay with it.
Yet, one by one dun want to come due to some circumtances.
Wini said before that those who want to come, then come, those who dun, then dun lor.
Seriously,i told Wini thats is not i want.
I want everyone's attandance this time because it is not easy to have one chalet next time.
We will be separated into different class and we dun have time for chalet in future.
Therefore, this may be the last chalet that everyone gathers and as a class bonding.

And also, i also got no money ma.
I used my handphone bill which is $170 for this chalet.
To me,money problem can be settled easily.
I dun mind helping him to pay first.
Indeed, xxx3 got a broken toe, but at least make an effort to come?
He asked me to pay cab fare for him , i also dun mind.
But what really pissed me is that He still can go out with Nic..(i guess).WTF.
Then for xxx4, he is one of the birthday boy neh.
Cant he at least think that someone had made an effort to celebrate his birthday?
Seriously, i think more people are not coming if they found out xxx1 to xxx3 not coming..

ADAM IS PISSED OFF BY MUGGETS.=(

2008-02-25T22:01:00.003+08:00

Cool.It has been quite some time that i have been touching this blog.
Series and of unfortunate events and my examinations have restricted me from molesting my blog.
Lol!In other words, i don't have time lah!
Anyway,the emo season is seriously acting as some of of virus, spreading throughout everyone.
Of course, the "virus" has spread to me recently. Maybe i should say, thanks Wini for that virus?haha..
So many things have to be written down, simply do not know what to start of with.

Exam
Lets talk about exam.
Seriously, i can say all the papers are very easy, yet i simply lack of something called "time"& "speed" to finish the whole BLOODY LONG WINDED QUESTIONS!
Before the CMA first paper, we went to Changi Airport to study with Wini, Nick and Qiang.
I should say this group study surely has its effectiveness and produced results.
Everyone was engulfed into their "revisions".
The second group study took place in Mac near my house.
Lol, i have to apologize to Wini for not able to make up my mind of the study venue.
Maybe this round wasn't as productive as the previous group study.
Thanks to Jovian, we had been talking about girls,boys,looks and blah blah blah...
Haix, i am very afraid the i will screw Blaw paper (30 marks LAC question nv do) , and also FMGT paper(Theory Questions nv do) .
I do not want to retake the module again ='(.
haix..

Part 2
I have been blaming myself for not working hard over the years.
I am so jealous of William who can go to Shanghai for attachment even though his results is worst than mine-.-''
Keep asking myself this question ,"Why should i get into a relationship and now making a mess of myself."
Seriously, who do not want to go overseas for attachment?
But, my results are like craps and shits.
Blaming myself for all these.
Seriously, I must thanks Wini for giving me the motivation to move my life on.
Have been so-called encourging and "ann wei" her after her broke-off with her ex-bf.
As the same time, pulling myself off from my "emoness"
She told me that she also really wanted to go overseas for attachment.
Thus, i really putting my hopes onto her.Haha.
JIA YOU!WINI & ALL MY CLASSMATES!

Chalet
Finally lets talk about this incoming chalet.
Basically, this chalet is organized for 3 birthday people( me, Hogan & Docras).
Since no one wants to care about organising one and only want to participate, Wini and i decided to book one chalet(half-half) sharing the costs and plan for the activities.
However, we simply quite draggy as i have been working like an idiot and wini had been sleeping like a Zhu zhu.
Thus, we don't have the time to book the chalet.
Finally ,shi hui went with Wini to vivo to book the chalet.
A bit of confusion happened between3 of us, but i guess it is settled now.

2008-02-25T21:52:00.003+08:00

I am wandering seeking for what is right...
as i see the stars at night...
the moon at night...
I finally found the answer...
is to protect my precious until the end...

-aDam lAi-

2008-02-11T01:44:00.000+08:00

2008-02-11T01:41:00.000+08:00

Wee hoo!
ON ONE OF THE DAY
Really must thanks Wini and Shi Hui for bringing me to chop* my hair.
Initially i was very shocked to see my new hairstyle.
I am totally not used to it-.-
Then they paid the fee for me..
I so bu hao yi shi.
So i bought them a watch each..
After that, they bought me to make contact lens..
So cool!
The advisor was so fierce lah..
Even though she taught me how to put the contact lens..But also dun nid to be so impatient..
Really want to thanks them a lot!!
They ROX!!!
Then went to work with that hairStyle..
Everyone said i am so ah beng and some said i became handsome -.-''
I went to the washroom and washed and combed my hair down...hehe
Wini i am so sorry!cos i promise you not to touch my hair but i went and changed it back..hehe

On the 1st day of New year
At first, Kitti was the one who organise a outing for the gocery and fresh department people(to watch a movie)...
Yet ,In the whole thing is being organised by me and her...
We went to Cineleisure at 2pm to buy 13 tickets(Kung Fu Dunk) for everyone!
Then after buying the movie ticket, we bought bubble tea and chat until Kovida arrived, followed by Don.
Then we Went to play pool to wait for the rest.
Finally everyone arrived and we went in to watch...
The movie was quite short but funny...clap#clap#
After that, We ate Italy Food.
Then some of them went back...
While some of us stayed back and took quite a few photos =)
Uploaded them in the friendster..
It was very Fun!

Today
I had been rotting at home for the past 2 days.
Finally Wini and I organised a outing for our class...Movie again-.-
This time is Ah Long Pte Ltd..
I Keep on persuading Docras and Ee Sheng to go..
Finally, i and Wini shared money to buy Docras a ticket cos she is broke -.-'''
Right after work, i rush wth Yilong to Queenstown Shopping Centre to Buy his attachment clothes.
I manage to choose for him 3 long-sleeved shirts at a very resonable price...
So glad that he likes it a lot too..haha
After that i rushed back to home to get ready...
Then rushed to Cathay to watch movie with them..
Lol, everyone said i look much better with that hairstyle and contact lens and my new clothes =D
At first i dun want to style my hair and wear contact lens de, cos i am too lazy to do so..
Smsed Wini and asked her if i can dun style my hair a not..then she replied "NO" -.-.......
then bo bian lor...then anyhow style lor..haha
We went to food court to eat dinner 1st...
Then for no reason Wini and Hogan quarrelled-.-
Not really quarrel, but they talked back each other about organising the March chalet..
In the end, i told both of them to shut up and i organise -.-''''
Then we rushed to Cathay to watch the movie..
Wini fall down twice when walking back-.- ( all his shoes' fault)
Then we walked until a very very rocky road..
Shi Hui insisted that i piggyback Wini..
i was like..."shi hui,u got to be kidding.."
Aiya, dun care lah...in the end i piggyback her and ran-.-'''
I was so scare that i make wini frightened lah!
Then in the end, she say i piggyback quite comfortable ......wth..........................
Finally we went to watch the movie(Ah long pte ltd).....
LOL, it was soooooooo funny at the start.....
But towards the end..it was quite touching..haix..
Ultimately, everyone enjoys themselves...
and this is what i love to see...
no matter how tough in organisiing a outing , as long as everyone enjoys themselves, i will more than willing to do it =D

2008-01-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

Wow...so freaking long never blog liao..
So busy everyday...all becos of chinese new year..
I have to study and work...grhh so stress..
This is the video that i had made for the BAZAAR!

Hhehe nice?
even though i sometimes very stress about all my things.
But thankfully got my Jie jie to chat with me on the phone..
Got Marcus and Ronaldo and help me too.
Got My ntuc friends to play with...
And also my classmates for...shooting me?haha
Really Thanks all of you for accompany me all the way
Love You All!!
I will continue to blog a lot more when i free =D..

2008-01-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

Malaysia trip (one night)
Still got three more days that we were to go back to Singapore.
Then my 2 cousin insisting to sleep with me and my mother.
we all sleeping on 2 beds which were on the floor.
Ah di slept on my right and Zilei slept on my left..while my mum slep beside Zilei..
Then keep playing around when the lights off..-.-
Finally all of us fall asleep except me..
Cos that Ah di really dunno how to sleep or what..
His hands keep hitting my head and face..
Always scare me when i was going to close my eyes..
Finally able to sleep,then his legs almost kick my that thing..-=.=
Wake up so many times to help both of them to cover their banklets...
That night...i became emo again...siting on the bed
Thinking of how i and her chat about our future...our house..and how we going to wake up each other every morning..haix
Then accidentally fall asleep while sitting...
The next morning i woke up, my back was so dam pain..
cannot even move..
Then Zilei and ah di and my mum were still sleeping..
Help them to cover blankets again..and prepare breakfast for them..
That whole night..i only slept for 3 hours...so disgusting..

2008-01-10T00:49:00.000+08:00

Malaysia Trip ( I forgot which day)
Ah Mei Brought me to her aunty's shop to cut my hair.
Brought my mother and the smaller cousin(Ah di) to go there.
Then i cut first.After cutting,i feel like highlighting my hair.
Then Jie smsed me,"You playing audi ar"
I thought she sent wrongly again...so i did not reply her.
All of sudden dunno why feeling very down..
and i also scare it is not nice after highlighting so i decided not to.
Then my mother dye her hair black black...
Then in the end..they never dye properly..
the aunty dye her hair again..
as usual, my mum is hot-tempered..
after dying,she did not want to wash the hair and then went home..
i took picture of that..i know i am very evil but it was very funny...
i should upload it soon..ha

The next day,Ah Mei called me and asked me want to go shopping a not.
I was like..."shopping again...ok lor..."
Then i bring Zilei again-.-
Cos her brother went tution..
i think i am too bias..but nvm..
Then in the end, i am the only guy...with zilei, alison,and ah mei's sister(ah fen)..
5 of us squashing in one car.
At first wanted to go to the Mid Valley in KL...but Ah mei dunno how to drive there..
then in the end,we end up in some shopping centre.
Their intention was to help me buy clothes...then buy for themselves-.-
Then we went in to the clothes' shop.
Then they threw me 5 clothes at one time.
In the end, i keep changing and changing and changing..
Haix...that time was foreverD did that...i mean Jie did that to me..
Now ended up is them...
In the end bought a collar-shirt...
Then again...threw me 5 shirts at one time...
keep changing until they said it was nice....
Then bought a black-stripped shirt...
After that we went to eat Macdonald and continue the shopping again-.-
This time, we were choosing the jeans...
This time..THEY THROW ME 12 PAIRS OF JEANS!
Then i felt so weird when they looked at my jeans after i wore it.
Cos they keep looking at my backside and my front..
That was so embarassing..somemore they are girls...
In the end zilei asked me why my face was a bit pink...
then i went and hide myself...
After that ,the saleperson scolded us for bringing so many jeans.
I bought one jeans in the end..
Then my cousins went off to buy their clothes...
i was so lucky that they did not buy any bra..
or else i am going to be embarassed more...
Finally i decided to choose my own clothes...
In the end i went and choose a pink shirt..
I know it was a bit gay but they said it looked nice and so i bought it...
i dunno if i dare to wear a not..-.-
After that we went home....
Went back home....found out that my uncle and my aunt quarrel over toilet..
and never take to each other...
Like that they also want to quarrel..
I dunno what happen to me..
i scolded my uncle for being so bad-tempered...cos my aunt has been letting my uncle a lot..
I dunno what happen to me....
So "gan ka" that i went to Ah Chen's (whoopee) house...
That time..i was thinking .."what have i done..i am going to be soo deaad"
But after a while...i was shocked that my uncle came and fetch me back...
On the bike...we were very quiet..i am so ashamed of myself...
At home..all of sudden my uncle talked to my aunt...
ha...maybe i have done a good deed afterall....
That night...
i was thinking...
Maybe..i have grown...
maybe thanks to Jie...
i need to be more mature..
cos i knew Jie broke up with me that time cos i am too childish bah...
Sometime i wish i can tell her my feelings that time...
i want to let her know it was not what she think de...
But nvm lah...
Just let it be bah...

2008-01-09T02:06:00.000+08:00

Marcus !
Help me update my old blog as i dunno what to write!!
Got myself a new Jie!
And love to Li li siao siao me..-.-
Fortunately she never misunderstand me again..
now having headache and coughing like siao..
tml ECD test..
nid to go sleep already...
Good night blog.

2008-01-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

Today, went to work to help da jie do the chinese new year decoration...
Was a bit shocked..
da jie sat in the preparation room and cried..
Yilong and i were speechless..
Must be too stress on work...
We had no idea how to comfort her...just stand still and stare at each other blankly..
But fortunately it was alright..
Haix..poor da jie..feel to sorry for her that we cannot do anything.

Malaysia trip day 4
Back to my story...
Day 4,my another aunt gave a morning call for my mother to go shopping.
So i went too...bringing Zilei(the older cousin) go again..
The younger one was still sleeping..
That aunt brought the whole family and then end up driving 2 cars.
Then we arrived at the shopping centre at around 10am.
The shopping centre haven opened.
We waited and chat.
i was standing quite a distance from my aunt's children.
Cos i am scare of them.
I remember last year...
one of her children ran after me trying to touch my face...
she keep pinching my face..
saying that i got a "tofu face"..
sec 2 already still like that-.- ... very scary.
Finally the door opened and we went in..
choose a new wallet and a shirt.
My mum keep on forcing me to buy clothes that i didn"t like at all.
so disgusting..
in the end my aunt secretly told me that my mum is very funny...
then they went to the bra section..
it was so embarrasing for me..
so i just stay outside and stare at nothing..
then my aunt's daughter was choosing her that thing...
then she complained that is very loose and showed her mum..
then her mum went and touch...
i was soo....like " omg..wth"
then her daughther ran away...
we all laughed...
where got like that de..
mother touchs daughther's..that thing..
finally everyone bought her clothes except me..
Then we went home....after eating lunch...

2008-01-05T02:07:00.000+08:00

Malaysia Trip Day 3
Very confused..confused..
nvm..continue my happy malaysia trip..
i forgot what happen on the second day...
Anyway on the 3rd day, Ah mei asked me to go Malaysia's longest Pasar malam.
As usual,my the other 2 cousins wanted to follow me.
Actually i wanted to bring the older sister..then the younger brother die also want
follow..
Then then i said only can bring one..
Haix..no choice..the younger brother will anyhow "fly"..
i scared cannot even chase him..so only want to bring the sister only.
Then Their father said it will be very crowded..someone is in KL city...
Then i decided not to bring any of them.
Went off with Mei and her husband(the car-.-)...
Chat quite a lot in the car...was very relaxing in the jorney..
Then we went to fetch Alison,my another cousin.
Then asked them when they want to come to singapore..
Because both of them came to Singapore during October...
they said it should be around next year March...
then they asked me to show them my gf if they go..
haix...why everyone keep asking me this question..
during october when they came...
i asked before foreverD if she want to meet them..
of cos she dun want cos she is shy..
Now everyone keep asking me to show them my gf..
very...irratating and heart-broken..
i told them,"no more already"..
haix,maybe i talk until very harsh..
they remained silent after that...
then i immediately told them not to worry as i am very fine..
yet..my hearts feel hurts again..feel like pinching it..
nvm..
finally we reach the place...
the pasar malam was so long and crowded..
Ah Mei told me that there is a very famous "smelly tofu" ..Then all sudden a hand hold my hand..
i was so shocked and jumped..and turned around...
it was my that 2 cousins!
so their mother brought them here..
i thought they said this place very crowded..still bring them here..so irony..
then we shop byour own..
the 2 cousins want to follow me!!!
but their parent took them away cos i really cannot take care of them in such a place...
finally we smell something very smelly..
and Ah mei said..we are coming near to the "smelly tofu"
we walked and walked...
finally walked until the end of the place still cannot find..
yet the smell is still that...
Finally Ah Mei told me to look at my legs..
I stood down there for a minute...
i cannot believe my eyes..
i have stepped onto some stupid dog's shit..
that was so ... disgusting lor
i did not know what to do..
then both of them were laughing at me..
ok fine..me again..
then they bought me to wash it...
it was sooo disgusting..and soo embarrassing..
Then we went home..
On the way back..i was thinking how i wished i could bring her there..
then she knows what to buy for me..
haix...
but of cos....the stupid shit is really..
but overall quite enjoy myself..
thats goes my 3rd day..

2008-01-05T01:23:00.000+08:00

Today went to Ntuc and work...
i was late for 1 hours...
Fortunately Da Jie was not there..
Or else i am going to get pinched..
Then Michelle's mother came and ask me a
very very very very very very very very very
EVIL question...
She asked,"Adam,no more relationship already happy a not?"
I stared at her,speechless.
"Got more freedom right?"she added..
Walao..this is not funny lor..
ForeverD always said you are a good mother then you say until like that...
What the hell...
But i smiled and walk away...
i think she is only joking bah..
so i never really angry about such a small matter..
I suppose to work until 10pm..
Yet i feel like i wanted to work until 11pm..
Dunno why..
i just got a feeling..
that feeling that she will show up today...
or maybe at least i can secretly see her in the bus stop...
then i remember she told me before Max always books out on friday..
Haix..maybe they will go out..
so i decided go home at 10pm.
Things seem very strange....
when i came back and on the computer..
then was an offlined msn message from her
saying.."Yo, Adam xiao di!!!
i was like "huh?what happen..since when i become xiao di?"
Only dodo aunty call me xiao di ... cannot be her what..
then i replied,"yo,huixian jie 0,o"
Ha..marcus i know this is a bit stupid...
Strangely she smsed me whether i have work a not..
Told her that i worked until 10pm...
Then she asked me if i am at home already..
very strange...
what is exactly going on?
i am very confused arh...

2008-01-04T00:35:00.001+08:00

Malaysia Trip(Day 1)
Lol..
i posted some nonsences in my old blog in case she went and see.
I think she is not working today bah..
Cos she is not online the whole day..
I guess her house computer spoiled or something..
so she never use it to be online...

Anyway..
This blog has been 3 months liao..
Everytime the post is so...emo.
Lets post something happy which is my Trip to Malaysia..

On the very First Day.
i was anticipating to went on Malaysia on that day.
Hoping to enjoy myself and to forget the past....at least 2 weeks.
Slept in the train throughout the journey...
The train delayed for 1 hour.
Then my uncle came to fetch us.
Whoopee was inside the car too..
ha..not use to call him whoopee..
Cos everytime i called him "Ah Chen"..
While my uncle was chating with my mum in the car..
All of sudden my uncle asked,"Ah boy!i hear you got gf liao arh!"
"how come never bring back to malaysia"...
I was like.."WTF!!!!!!!!!!!"
First thing came into my mind was..
Wei..stop calling me Ah Boy even thought you always call Whoopee "baby"
Second...
How the hell you know i got a girlfriend...
Then he told me that Bellon(his another son) told him..
Stupid Bellon even showed him the friendster photos...
Then i smiled back, refused to give further comments.
Then my mum was staring at me and smile..
and told my uncle saying that we are just friends..
then my uncle told my mum that nowadays teenagers are like that..
Is very common for a relationship..especially reaching age like us..
Then my mum did not say anything...
Finally reached my grandmother's house..
Then my cousin dashed after me and tried to hug me..-.-
i dunno why kids love me so much..
Even ForeverD's bro...
On that day after my exam..
he keep chating me on skype..
asking me to play with him..
then i told him i am busy...
Then he asked me if i am his sis broke already...
And ask me go find another girl..
I was like ..'wth..."
Then he said ForeverD's leg very ugly..
Then he told him not not say anything bad about her sis
cos her sis has been really take care of him..
then he keep calling me "jie fu"
then i told him to called Max "jie fu"
Then he said He dun wan cos Max is ugly and only know how to act cute..
Then he said even though i a bit ugly...but i very good..
I was like.."wth"...again..
Nowdays..kids really...i duno what to say..
Then i scolded him again for talking nonsence and told him to be good boy,
listen to his sister and stop giving trouble to his sister...
Then he keep on asking me where i live -.-
then i told him we talk in skype can already...
and if got any homework can ask me..
Like that then he will not keep asking ForeverD and let her rest after work..
Then finally we told each other not tell his sister...
Since that day, he never online liao.

ok nvm back to malaysia trip...
my 2 cousins hug my until i cannot breathe...-.-
then on that night we went to eat outside...
That is a total of 19 of us...such a big family..
Then went back home and sleep...
That goes my first day...

2008-01-03T14:59:00.000+08:00

See lah see lah!
First paper got back and fail.
Go read thier blog lah.
Then dun want to study lah.
Haix...fortunately there is a retest.
3 more papers to get back.
Dunno whether i still have hope of passing it.
Anyway, i am getting confused and more confused.
I was doing my project with the boys yesterday.
As usual,i am always the one doing and they are the one playing.
Then all of sudden ForeverD msned me if i got school.
Then I replied to her.
Then we chat for quite some time.
It has been quite some time we never been chat.
Still remember always chat until so late.
So many things to talk last time.
Then she started to ask some...very weird questions.
Questions like,
"i remenber you said you want to create second blog"
"I heard you never work liao?"
Of cos i told her i never have any other blog.
i took so long to reply..
cos i really do not know how to reply...
Ha..keep trying to sound like i am happy..
so stupid..
i dunno why..
it seems that she looks that i am lying..
and some more i was very confused..
i thou i already done it correctly ?
i acted like i am alright mah..
how she knows i was acting or something?
how she knows i never go work for so long?
Is it my acting skill is lousy or what?
haix..nvm...

真的真的好爱你。。。
但是你知道吗？

2007-12-31T20:58:00.000+08:00

TO WHOOPEE!!

YOU IDIOT!!!

DON'T YOU DARE LINK THIS BLOG INTO MY OLD BLOG OR ELSE I GOING TO KILL YOU!!!

2007-12-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

Feeling (part 2)

Marcus,
i am sorry i cannot control myself...
i went to his friendster.
He uploaded the photo...another photo of him and her.
And also the photo of his POP..
i finally understand POP means Passing Out Parade.
So,that time in her msn name, she has been waiting for the POP day..
haha,i pinched myself again...
Then i went to his blog...again...
Tried to read his previous post..
Finally i understand, Max was hurt too during thier break up in 2006.
Ya..
I have learned from Max.."Love is also about giving in"...
I nid to learn to give in and allow them to be happy..
Afterall they are the real couples.
Marcus, why i nid to suffer all these...haix..

2007-12-15T16:27:00.000+08:00

Feeling (part 1)

Recently too many things happen to me.
So many "whys" to be asked.
Anyway finally exam is over.
i think 2 out of 4 test should be a failure.
Haix...
Why the timing comes in so badly.
Why...
I finally take a step down and settle myself just a little bit...
even though i may miss her badly sometimes.
Everyday i watch anime till late and play psp..so i can forgot the past for the little moment...
All of sudden, that miss call...that msn which asked me whether i have max's blog...
and that sms sent to me wrongly...too fast...too fast...
The feeling came back again..so hurt...
Yet i have to force myself to study...
Yet everytime i read the notes...
I cannot concentrate...keep thinking of her...
Miss KPT told us before the story of one boy in Ngee Ann.
He called Miss KPT during his exam period and told Kpt that he had lost her gf and keep seeing the imagine of her girlfriend in the book...
Our whole class laughed,including myself,laughing at his childishness.
But now,i am laughing at myself..
I pinched so hard on my chest in order to make myself concentrate.
This is the only way to relief myself...
During exam, i pinched harder and harder each time i think of the photos of two of them...
Really really pain...in the end i noticed the chest got "orh ba ka" when i bathing-.-
Yet pain is on chest is better than the pain in the heart and soul...right marcus?

2007-12-12T18:30:00.000+08:00

Today after my blaw test,
feeling quite delighted as the paper was rather easy to a certain extain.
Intended to rush home and sleep.
Have been study the whole night,so sleepy.
When i took my phone handphone out form my bag.
There was a sms.
The sms is from her.
hmm,intially quite excited to see what she said.
the sms went like this,
"i woke up le.Today is book out day le.haha...When woke up msg me k? Muack.:)"
When i looked at it,i knew it was not for me.
Maybe she deliberately send it to me,to let me forget about her.
Or maybe is to Max or someone else.
i sms back"huh?"
she reply "?"
i sms back"i think you send to wrong person back =.="
And she never reply.
Marcus, since you are the only one who knows my blog.
i would like to tell you sorry for letting you worry.
You are my only best friend who i can trust.
i know i have been cheating myself.
i know i can no longer get her back.
Yet,i keep telling myself i will wait.
Sometime when i alone, is really heartbroken when think of the past.
I just watch this show.
This guy divorced with his wife purposely in order prevent his wife from ending up in jail.
I have lost....i really have lost her..
Tonight, i keep thinking in my mind.
What is exactly going on?
I decided to look for Max's blog...preparing for the worst.
I asked Marcus to help me find too.
Finally, we manage to find it from his friendster.
When Marcus gave me the blog..
I was afraid to open it...i pointed the mouse at it...feeling very scare...
Finally i clicked...
First time i saw...was that photo..max and she..
i scrolled down..and i saw more...
Hui xian...my heart...at that time...i really really cannot control myself..
I cried...It has been many year that i have not cried...
I just cant control my tear...
Quickly i closed the doors...dun want to let my mum know...
it was too sudden for me..
Yet i look at her smile...can really see she is happy..
Yet...i was confused, sad, cannot control..very lost...
i was thinking...since the day she broke with me...
She has set up her mind not to go into relationship.
I respect her descision...i respect her everything..
Yet i told myself..i will wait...i will wait till the day both of us really..
cos she said she had too many things to do..
And so i gave her freedom..
But why..
so sudden...
She patch back with Max...
Last time, i suspect that max still like her..
But finally,i choose to believe what she said to me.."no matter what,max is just a brother to me,he like to act cute, short, ugly and also dunnno how to take care of girl..i got no feeling on him"..
i am really confused...
Why she cant give me a chance...and patch with max again..
Why...
I cannot accept it ...really..i cant..

2007-12-10T19:31:00.000+08:00

Tommorrow common test liao.
I just feel like throwing my notes away.
Dun want to care.
i don't know why.
Really really tired sometimes.
我真的好累了。。。

2007-12-07T22:20:00.000+08:00

Story of my classmates.

Hi blog,
Today was quite a tiring day.
We(me,robin,hogan.batna,yong qiang) have a huge project on hand known as bazzaa.
We are to set up stalls to sell our products to customers in Bukit Batoh.
Yong qiang came out with an excellent idea of doing catering to the ventors too.
Thus, we will be selling food and drinks( F & B) the the people who are setting up stalls too.
However our ideas come with high risk.
What if no one willing to support us?
Anywhere we went to to Batoh today to look to suppliers who can provide us the food to sell.
Finally we manage to find one but the idea was further improvised by Robin.
I could simply say Robin is born with talents.
Indeed, robin is gifted the intelligience and the looks.
Trust me, he look very untidy most of the time, most when he dress up,on one can defeat him.LOL.
But yet, he abuse his talents wrongly.
He drink and smoke.
I never say drink and smoke means he is a bad guy.
But he is killing himself faster -.-
I had advise him before that he should quit.
INdeed he did try but failed.
1 month again Robin patch with his girlfriend again after breaking up for 2 weeks-.-
That stupid idiot do not know how to tresure her.
Before the breaking up*, robin had told hogan before that Grace(his gf) is
not giving him freedom.
Everytime,i mean of the time, Grace wants to follow him wherever Robin goes.
Maybe sometime Robin needs his own personal time with friends too.
That stupid dun even know what is the meaning of communication.
He can always tell Grace about it.
They have been together for so long.
Maybe each of them cannot go on life properly without each other.
That time,after breaking with grace,robin keep saying he has his freedom.
But stupid also can tell that he is very inhappy.just look at the way he drink durng chalet.
haix..
Anyway,finally he still have chance and they patch back again..aslovingas the past.
Please let them forever lovely and dun end up like me..
I know i have no more chance...yet i still waiting...

Anyway back to hogan too..
Hogan also been in love with that Pearlyn.
i dunno her but only saw her in hogan's friendster.
NOT MY TYPE HOR!
Anyway, Hogan was confuse if he want to go for it as he do not know she likes hogan a not..lol
Then i asked him how long they know each other already,he tell me to take care of my problem first.-.-...fine
let it be...but i can only say she is not hogan's type cos she is too..imean sure got lots of other boys want to chase her too. Maybe too stressful for Hogan( since i know him too well)
Anyway, batna is in love too!
haha, but he is confuse who he likes most......One is his roomate and the other one is...DOCRAS!
hahah..docras is same class as we too..
Anyway,he is trying hard to see who he likes most..
Luckily,we can see that Docras is opening up for batna.
Haha,just like what batna last time said, study comes in first as we have no time for relationships.
But sometimes, this " love" feeling just strike you out of no way.
That is why i always said," You will now know what will happen ever you have promise something to yourself."
Just like what she keeps saying now that she wants to be single forever.
But hopefully one day, she really finds the true love that she really want.
By that time i can finally rest in peace....even though i still want to wait...
Haha...how stubborn am i.
Anyway, that mr ong..is so funny.
Maybe someone likes him, he also have no idea.-.-
He has the intelligience, but simply lack of observation and human-relationship skills.

2007-12-05T23:38:00.000+08:00

Finally i tend to settle myself.
Trying my best to keep myself occupy.
Next is test liao..haix.
i still remenber the great support that she gave me during my previous exam.
I have no motivation to study now.
Everytime come staight home after school.
Dun feel like staying out with the classmates.
Hogan,batna,robin,jovian....and all the boys i know....
they only know how to talk about girls..
exactly like william, a big radar on the head scanning for girls.
Everytime in canteen 1(place filled with GIRLS), when they see a pretty girl,
for example,hogan saw one walking past, then he will say," the one in green!"
then everyone will start looking.-.-
Very lame indeed.
I have totally no interest in them...reason?
I have no idea.
Jovian always say," this guy got no interest in girls one,"
lol-.-
To me, it is so rude to lookat them like that.
I mean girls are human too..
Can you imagine you walk on the street and everyone stare at you.
dam...Dunno why..i just feel all the boys are fucking* preverts...haha
Somemore i am the most quiet in the group.
Dun like to be with the girls too,cos nothing much to talk.
Therefore, one thing to is to play psp...lol
OR...go home lor.
haha..come back home..no motivation to study..
just want to daydream.
Still, sometime feel i have lost something.
I have saw her blog(telling me not to wait)..haix.
nvm...keep watching youtube to keep myself ouccupy..haha

2007-12-03T22:08:00.000+08:00

"Best Chalet" part 3

Finally after buying sotongs.
Marcus and i wash them and bring it back to peirong.
Then we bath and too tired that we fall asleep.
When we awake, more classmates came.
Too bad miss sim did not come as she was sick.
But our chinese teacher came, bringing her children as well.
Everyone started to cheer up once again..
forgeting thier tedious cycling trip...haha
OH..almost forgot to add on..
Poh chong fall of the bicycle after coming a big "bang" with a tree.
lol he really cock-eye..haha
however, he keep saying that the tree run so fast and bang onto him -.-
Also,ronaldo fall on during the down slope..
luckily, he was unharmed.
Can i imagine if i told this to dear.
She comfirmed will say," See lah, never take care of do do"..lol
nvm..she ...
anywhere, jonathan and peirong was doing the BBQ most of the time.
The rest was chatting and playing poker cards.
Finally at around 1 am..
I take over peirong while she went and chat with the girls.
During thier conversation, they were talking to boy-girl relationship.
Haix..they asked if lifen's big sister still got stead with her boyfriend a not.
She immediately reply "yup,yup"
They have been steading for around 3 years...even the bf is in NS.
Then peirong said,"my teacher said that the relationship will be thestrongest if the girl able to wait for the bf after NS"
During thier conversation, i was daydreaming again.
Thinking of what i always tell her,
and i remember she always says," i will wait for you for NS de"
haix..dunno why..i emo again.
The next day, i never talk at all.
Everyone wakes out and preparing to book out.
Then the 6 of us(boys) took the big big taxi to ron's house..
I totally did not open my mouth...keeps thinking of the past...
Then the boys went to swimmed in ron's condo..
for me...i refuse to swim...emoing alone...haha
then finally they went to kbox..
i went home..alone..
and sleep...
trying not to think so much..
<>

2007-12-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

"Best Chalet" part 2

On thursday, Marcus and i went to ronaldo's house to stay over.

We are totally well-prepared.
We went to eat murtabak.
Haha, i drink Milo dinosaur while marcus drink Milo Gorzilla!
Sound very weird but it was very nice.
Then we ordered Fried ice-cream.
It was really interesting to know how they really fry the ice cream.
We played psp until late 2am.
At that time when both ron and marcus was sleeping, i started to think of her again..haix
Finally the next morning, we set off at around 1pm which was extremely late -.-
We brought a bottle of wine and took a cab with nixon to Pasir Ris.
Then we met Pei Rong , Ziyan and ting.
We went to buy the BBQ food first.
Finally Grace came..cannot even recognise her -.-
Marcus was asked to choose PRAWNS as he is a fish "mongo" now.
HAHA.
Finally, we went into the chalet house with our heavy things.
While waiting for the rest to come, we play a game.
I have no idea what is the name of the game..
but the whole idea is to put your hands and legs onto the correct colours.
It was quite fun.
Finally everyone arrived, and we walked to the bicycle shop to book the bicycle.
Marcus and i almost lead the wrong way and get ourselves lost -.-
We managed to get a discount for everyone and get our suspension bike.
However, there was not enough suspension bike so some of
us have to take the normal mountain bike.
At first, i was having suspension bike.
However, 2 bikes were broken down resulting me to use to mountain bike...ROAR
A problem occur when we have no proper place to park our bike.
Finally, me ,marcus , yeow koon and nixon and pohchong toook shifts to look after the bike.
We ride our bike around the park to kill our boredom sometimes.
I would really want to thanks yeow koon to takecare of the bike for so long.
Anywhere , when we ride around the park.
I have been chatting with Pei Rong.
Pei Rong told me that the girls were actually shocked to find out that
marcus and i planned the bicycle journey.
Not only does the journey but the equipments needed too.
Also, I found out from her that she actually knows our blog...WTH
thats means Miss Sim knows too!Arghhh
Anywhere , we rested until around 2 am.
Finally the girls have no patience and we finally set off at around 2.30am
Everything start off very well, except for ziyan.
She is a very poor cyclist and we have to really take care of her.
During the journey, i keep praying to God that please let this
trip be a success.
Marcus and i was carried a very big responsibility to
ensure everyone is safe throughout the whole journey.
There is a total of 13 people in this journey.
It was amazing to find out that everyone did not want any rest at all.
After 1 hour of the journey, our butt started to feel the the intensive pain.
It was a very peaceful night when we passed through all the park connectors.
Some of the residents were fishing and some were enjoying the night scenerio.
Marcus and i was expecting the road to be very dark.
However, it was very bright and clear though.
Somehow during the journey, The boys were complainin that henry
kept stoppingfor no reason.
When Zul was doing bicycle stunts...pei rong was getting slower and slower
as she was already very exhausted.
But no matter what, we reach the Mac in East coast around 5am.
The girls were very tired and were complaining about the thier butt(pain).
It was very sad and demoralized when some of them said they dun want any more
cycling trip in future.
Some of them wanted to take the MRT home too.
haix...
finally we abandoned our watching of sunrise plan and cycled back.
Everyone was really tired..
We too different path home...
It was so dam bloody longer path..nvm.
Finally everyone reach the chalet at around 8am.
Totally burned out, some of them went to bed without bathing.
while some slept on the chairs near the sea.
For me,marcus and ron and yeowkoon, and nixon,we were somehow..
still energertic.
Marcus and i follow Pei Rong and ride to the wet market to buy sotong..lol
i almost get killed by one supid unclewho wan to went past me during the ride.-.-

2007-12-03T20:52:00.000+08:00

"Best Chalet" part 1
I could only say," This is the best chalet i ever attend."
I has been waiting for this very moment.
Cos this may be the last chalet for 402.
I had came in peparation with Marcus.
We have been planning what to do during chalet long ago.
Finally, we decided to have a cycling expedition.
Initially, this programme was organised for the 402 boys.
Cos i doubt the girls have the ability to cycle that long.
Our objective was to cycle from Pasir Ris park to East coast park to see sun rise.
However, Nixon rise an important point.
He said," what happen if the girls really want to join?"
Ok fine, i have no choice but to sms Elieen to ask the girls wheather they want to ask us a not.
As expected from my prediction, It was a very good response.
My responsibility raises 100% more.
Marcus and i personally went to Pasir Ris park to test the whole journey.
Fortunately, Marcus knew half of the journey as he has went with his JC people.
Too bad, his friends do not have the perservarance to carry on.
It was a chill weather with an "ambush" feeling during the demo.
I am a good cyclist until that day.
I learn how to cycle with one hand!!!!And able to stand on the bike.
It is true that we have achieved something.Yet it comes with great price.
My butt and my "balls" hurts after sitting on the bike for around 3 hours.
haha

2007-11-18T23:56:00.001+08:00

Oh ya.blog..
tell some you something very interesting to me.
Today during my lunch with Yilong and dajie..
We sat with the other 2 aunties and that Mark or whatever.
the cool cool man who works in the fish de...
Anywhere, they are very funny...
they keep talking about s*x...
for example like.."
Mark said,"Before ns if got gf, dun put in love into it, put ur stick into it can already"
Yilong and i was thinking,"what the hell -.-"
Then mark says," i only eat white chicken rice , i dun eat roasted chicken rice."
-.-'''
Then mark asked yilong , " have you see before white chicken ?"
Then yilong said " at the chicken rice stall."
Then everyone laugh so loudly.
Then Mark told them," these 2 boys arh , very dumb dumb de , they find our words very weird weird and dunno what it means."
Actaully, after thinking quite sometime..we finally knows what it means but never say it out.
White chicken means women without hair.
Roasted chicken means womens with hair.
NO wonder last time ricky always say white chicken white chicken, then she laugh and laugh,
finally i understand what it means.
Aiyoyo...
Anyway, the dodo aunty asked me how is me and her.
Then i say,"good good"
Then she said ," hui xian is a nice girl.She buy you so many things like clothes, other girls may not even want to spend money on thier bf, so you must tresure her."
I replied,"i willl, i will."
Yet, i was thinking..i wish i can tresure her forever.
But, i cannot do that anymore.
Haix...