Finally all my modules are ended and left the revisions lectures and projects.
So decided to upload my project video into the you tube.Enjoy =D

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Tuesday

Presented my IB project in my class.
We were expected to wear formal and it turns out to be our group is to one and only who wore formal.Then went to NTUC to find yilong and wrote my leave form.
Unexpectedly, Da jie told us to inform everyone to write the forms asap.
We were expectedly her to act like a psycho and scream around.haha
Went back home and was intended to study for my theory test.
However, I end up doing my WISP video.
I was totally engulfed into my fury as i could not do a proper one.
The programme hang itself serveral times.
Frustrated, annoyed, blasting . I still continue do it.
The time was 11pm, I still have not start flipping the book.
12am, i started off my very first page and read all the way to 3am.


Wednesday

Tried to wake up at 9 but my eyes were just too heavy.
Finally, woke up at 11am and continue my revision.
I was totally demoralize by what my mum said.
" Come out NS then learn how to drive ma. Now also got no car for you to drive.Huh. No money still want to learn. Anyhow spend money."
Sadden by such hurtful words.
Everything i do are only to be commented by them and not encouraged by them.
Every actions, thoughts, movements are heavily criticized by their words.
They always..always..compare me with others.
Even though i try the best out of me. I still failed to gain recognition from them.
Try to learn how to play keyboard. But was misunderstood to spend my money unwisely.
i guess locking myself in my tiny room is the best solution yet not the lasting one.
Anyway, back to my final theory. I was really prepared to final as i was quite tedious and could not think logically.
Fortunately , i passed =)


Thursday
Went to went at 5 pm after my lesson.
Feeling very unwell.
My eyes were very uncomfortable and was very red.
I feel like my eyes were pressured by the surrounding.
Sulaiman took me to take a rest but i stubbornly continued :p
Feeling better and better.
Then help Alice to take her 2 bags of clothes home.
The lame part was she still called Shan Zhu to come down and still..-.-
And that Shan Zhu drew me a panda.-.-'


Friday
The most fearful day of the month.
Alice invited me to join her to eat Mac after work.
She drew $30 and asked Michelle and her brother to buy while both of us waited.
Food came and blah blah blah.
Both of them realized that $10 was gone.
Alice asked michelle and her bro madly.
Eventually michelle turns out answering in tears.
I was really speechless. Almost everyone was looking over here.
I tried to took out my $10 and put it on the floor to create a false scene.
But i dun have a $10 note -.-
This is not the first time i see her crying as she can tears while too overjoyed.
But this time , I can see it REAL.
Those dripping tears were like voicing out, "i am accused ,sad ,scare and innocent."
Great. one of my ultimate fears is this type of crying.-.-
I do not know who to help.
Her brother was angered and went straight home.
but Michelle pretended to find the money and give her back $10 which is her own money.
Kept quiet throughout when walk back with them.
afraid to utter any wrong words .
This is the second time i see Alice so fierce.
It was totally different when you see her working.
Just like split personality .
Sometimes, i really dunno it human nature to ague small matters or whatever.
I also dunno how to handle this kind of situations. Right or wrong. is hard to tell.
Just like i am unsure if i am saying a joke or mocking people or being retarded.
Some people can be quite serious about it.
It is also a bit hurting when people detest your jokes when you try to entertain them.
haix..life is a never easy road to walk with.

Alright.
I have just finished my Personal Reflection letter and Bp report.
Not even half way though.
Slacking now.
Went to you tube and accidentally found my previous video which uploaded 2 years ago.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AranCTworqY
Basically this video was part of my group presentation last year.
I did video from 12am to 7am and presented it on that day.LOL
It was very tedious but a great achievement for myself too =D

Just a little bit updates.
Marcus' birthday falls on 15th of July and eventually i did not celebrate with you.
I am really SORRY =(
7 years of friendship, 0 presents, 0 celebration.
Marcus!! Forgive me ultimate sinfulness!
I swear i will recompense in any other ways once i am free.

Everyone whom i aware off is facing very problematic setbacks with their project mates.
I assume the best to comfort them is to give a good example of myself.LOL
Even so, i have been emphasizing to them not to give up!
Act "retardedly" in front of them just to cheer them up.
Hope everyone is able to pass through this and next month.
Going to organize countless of activities for them =D

Just a word for that particular person which i DUN LIKE.
" Grow up and change your attitude before you want others to respect you."
Okay done. Time to drink milk.
Talking about milk. I have been trying very hard to cut down on my consumption of milk.
That Shan zhu said that this can lead to growing of stones in kidney.
Oh Great. My source of motivation, "the holy milk", is destroyed -.-

22 July (Tuesday), 2-4pm : IB Project Presentation

23 July (Wednesday) 4.30-5.30pm : Final Theory Test

24 July (Thursday) - Submission of Personal reflection on WISP(min 500 words)
Submission of Portfolio

25 July (Friday) - IPD Assignment 2 (2500 words), 5pm


28 July (Monday) - BOF Assignment 2( 15 pages), 5pm, BP Revision Lecture Part 1


30 July (Wednesday) - BOF Presentation, 4pm


1 August (Friday) - FBM Assignment 2(10 pages), 5pm


4 August (Monday) - BP Assignment 2(30 pages), 5pm; FBM Presentation, BP Revision Lecture Part 2


6 August (Wednesday) - BP & IPD Integrated Presentation, 11am-1pm



PLS
PLS
PLS
Kill me.
By all means.

Arhh!!!
My headache strike again.
Haven been sleeping these few days.
Keep practicing the keyboard and slept at around 2 to3 am-.-
The music notes have been spinning around me. Feel like giving up sometimes.
Grhh. I NEED PATIENCE!!
Then have to wake up earlier around 7.30 than before to have breakfast with batna in school.
Less than 4 hours of sleep.
No choice, promised to eat with him everyday.
But eventually i was always late. SORRY BATNA!

I was lucky to pass my basic theory test.
It was a last minute revision though.
Thankfully, i ended up myself in Bukit Gombak and not Bukit batok as i have misinterpret these 2 places last time.
On top of that, i was really lucky to have my final theory test next week!!
An average person should at least take a month to have his final while i only have one week!
Muhaha!

That shan zhu finally publicize her livejournal's link.
She has drawn been drawing Panda over the place.-.-
Never mind about that because i have take my revenge..muahaha

Yilong and William came to my school just now.
Apparently that William wasn't paying attention to our conversion.
He was screening all over the place for NP girls-.-
No choice and brought him to the "OurSpace"(a study place) and library to satisfy his "needs"
Brought them to the toilet which i always hide too ^_^
After that, we went and play pool and lan gaming.
Came back home try to practice keyboard again.
Increase my headache more.lol
Initially i want to pon school tomorrow.
But i was called by my project mate to go school for project consulting.
It is an compulsory extra module and has absolutely no link to my business course.
I HATE THIS MODULE.
*Bang the wall*

On Saturday night, Ron and Marcus came to my house.
Always feel excited when my friends come and staying over.
Unfortunately, Marcus was asleep after donating his blood while i was chatting with Ron.
He woke up in the middle of the night and joined in the conversation.
Sometimes, how i wish someone or anybody else can always be my side.
Definitely i dun mean "gayness" or something like that.
Over the years, i always sleep alone, play alone, study alone and blah blah blah.
Even occasionally i have to resolve talking to myself and my mum was so shocked and asked me to stop that habit.
I also try to convince myself that i can buy something that i like and always "play" with it.
Hand phone, computer, psp and every soft toys.
Lol..sorry about the soft toy..but that was when i am young.
But they neither have mouth to talk to me nor have a brain or heart can feel.
Nevertheless, i guess i still have my friends who are always supporting me.
Yilong , Michelle, Marcus, Ron, William, Sulaiman, William and kovida...............
They are just like my pillar of support.
Thanks guys...
I guess the only thing i can repay them is doing anything and everything?
Haha...

All right!
It has been a week that i never been blogging.
Recently i was quite stress up with all the projects.
Especially when things do not come quite right in the family.
Just bought a keyboard last sat.
It costs me $388 T_T
But i really enjoy myself playing the music i want to play.
Sadly, i was still struggling to learn how to read the notes.
Thanks to Sulaiman, i guess i know a little bit what i want myself to be.
He said this,
" i always make people laugh, but you make me laugh. I like it!"
" You are irritating, But funny!"
"You are one crazy bas****"
Hearing these sentences, i feel a sense of achivement.
I guess this is what i wanted.
Making people laugh makes me happy too.
But at the same time, I am emtionally touched as i feel happy to make someone happy.
What said by alice and yilong was right after all.
"In life, we are either sad or happy. Why don't we fill ourselves with happiness?"
But somehow, it is quite hard to execute such things.
MOst probably, i still have long way to go and many things to learn.=D
One learning point for me that i had came out with:"To live in grief, or to live in Bliss? Is your choice."
Now, i shall be everyone's happy fruit.
LOL, i think this only works out with my colleagues in the end.

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