Thursday, May 8, 2008'
Last Sat, Marcus And Ronaldo came my house.
It has been a while that we have not been "gaying" around in each other's houses.
As Usual, we have endless topics to chat about.Blah and Blah BRA!
Marcus and Ron have grown a lot more mature than the last time i saw them.
One important point that was mentioned by Marcus was :"The old Marcus is dead".
Eventually they also spotted that i have changed a lot since the breakdown of my relationship.
In fact, I really wished that tell them,"Adam is already dead long time."
The murderer is none other than her which i dun wish to mention her name.
But i just dun want them to worry for me and acted like normal.
Unfortunately, they tried to convince me to go to church and 'enlighten' me.
Subsequently, i rejected them a lot of times because i was really busy.
Somehow, they thought that i no longer want to get into relationship because of my past.
I guess because of that, they thought that i had became a "evil" person.
Seriously i know exactly what am i doing now is just that i am just too afraid.
This question has been bought up several times by my other friends regarding
why i dun want to get into relationship.
As i always said, i really scare.too scare. totally numb about relationship.
It really took me long time to recover and i dun wan to see another failure again.
I just want FREEDOM!!
hahhaha!!
One holy advice for for everyone around me.
"Think before you do!!!"
God
I pray that everyone around me will eventually
find their true loved ones without ending up like me.
Amen.
