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Feeling (part 2)

Marcus,
i am sorry i cannot control myself...
i went to his friendster.
He uploaded the photo...another photo of him and her.
And also the photo of his POP..
i finally understand POP means Passing Out Parade.
So,that time in her msn name, she has been waiting for the POP day..
haha,i pinched myself again...
Then i went to his blog...again...
Tried to read his previous post..
Finally i understand, Max was hurt too during thier break up in 2006.
Ya..
I have learned from Max.."Love is also about giving in"...
I nid to learn to give in and allow them to be happy..
Afterall they are the real couples.
Marcus, why i nid to suffer all these...haix..

Feeling (part 1)

Recently too many things happen to me.
So many "whys" to be asked.
Anyway finally exam is over.
i think 2 out of 4 test should be a failure.
Haix...
Why the timing comes in so badly.
Why...
I finally take a step down and settle myself just a little bit...
even though i may miss her badly sometimes.
Everyday i watch anime till late and play psp..so i can forgot the past for the little moment...
All of sudden, that miss call...that msn which asked me whether i have max's blog...
and that sms sent to me wrongly...too fast...too fast...
The feeling came back again..so hurt...
Yet i have to force myself to study...
Yet everytime i read the notes...
I cannot concentrate...keep thinking of her...
Miss KPT told us before the story of one boy in Ngee Ann.
He called Miss KPT during his exam period and told Kpt that he had lost her gf and keep seeing the imagine of her girlfriend in the book...
Our whole class laughed,including myself,laughing at his childishness.
But now,i am laughing at myself..
I pinched so hard on my chest in order to make myself concentrate.
This is the only way to relief myself...
During exam, i pinched harder and harder each time i think of the photos of two of them...
Really really pain...in the end i noticed the chest got "orh ba ka" when i bathing-.-
Yet pain is on chest is better than the pain in the heart and soul...right marcus?

Today after my blaw test,
feeling quite delighted as the paper was rather easy to a certain extain.
Intended to rush home and sleep.
Have been study the whole night,so sleepy.
When i took my phone handphone out form my bag.
There was a sms.
The sms is from her.
hmm,intially quite excited to see what she said.
the sms went like this,
"i woke up le.Today is book out day le.haha...When woke up msg me k? Muack.:)"
When i looked at it,i knew it was not for me.
Maybe she deliberately send it to me,to let me forget about her.
Or maybe is to Max or someone else.
i sms back"huh?"
she reply "?"
i sms back"i think you send to wrong person back =.="
And she never reply.
Marcus, since you are the only one who knows my blog.
i would like to tell you sorry for letting you worry.
You are my only best friend who i can trust.
i know i have been cheating myself.
i know i can no longer get her back.
Yet,i keep telling myself i will wait.
Sometime when i alone, is really heartbroken when think of the past.
I just watch this show.
This guy divorced with his wife purposely in order prevent his wife from ending up in jail.
I have lost....i really have lost her..
Tonight, i keep thinking in my mind.
What is exactly going on?
I decided to look for Max's blog...preparing for the worst.
I asked Marcus to help me find too.
Finally, we manage to find it from his friendster.
When Marcus gave me the blog..
I was afraid to open it...i pointed the mouse at it...feeling very scare...
Finally i clicked...
First time i saw...was that photo..max and she..
i scrolled down..and i saw more...
Hui xian...my heart...at that time...i really really cannot control myself..
I cried...It has been many year that i have not cried...
I just cant control my tear...
Quickly i closed the doors...dun want to let my mum know...
it was too sudden for me..
Yet i look at her smile...can really see she is happy..
Yet...i was confused, sad, cannot control..very lost...
i was thinking...since the day she broke with me...
She has set up her mind not to go into relationship.
I respect her descision...i respect her everything..
Yet i told myself..i will wait...i will wait till the day both of us really..
cos she said she had too many things to do..
And so i gave her freedom..
But why..
so sudden...
She patch back with Max...
Last time, i suspect that max still like her..
But finally,i choose to believe what she said to me.."no matter what,max is just a brother to me,he like to act cute, short, ugly and also dunnno how to take care of girl..i got no feeling on him"..
i am really confused...
Why she cant give me a chance...and patch with max again..
Why...
I cannot accept it ...really..i cant..

Tommorrow common test liao.
I just feel like throwing my notes away.
Dun want to care.
i don't know why.
Really really tired sometimes.
我真的好累了。。。

Story of my classmates.

Hi blog,
Today was quite a tiring day.
We(me,robin,hogan.batna,yong qiang) have a huge project on hand known as bazzaa.
We are to set up stalls to sell our products to customers in Bukit Batoh.
Yong qiang came out with an excellent idea of doing catering to the ventors too.
Thus, we will be selling food and drinks( F & B) the the people who are setting up stalls too.
However our ideas come with high risk.
What if no one willing to support us?
Anywhere we went to to Batoh today to look to suppliers who can provide us the food to sell.
Finally we manage to find one but the idea was further improvised by Robin.
I could simply say Robin is born with talents.
Indeed, robin is gifted the intelligience and the looks.
Trust me, he look very untidy most of the time, most when he dress up,on one can defeat him.LOL.
But yet, he abuse his talents wrongly.
He drink and smoke.
I never say drink and smoke means he is a bad guy.
But he is killing himself faster -.-
I had advise him before that he should quit.
INdeed he did try but failed.
1 month again Robin patch with his girlfriend again after breaking up for 2 weeks-.-
That stupid idiot do not know how to tresure her.
Before the breaking up*, robin had told hogan before that Grace(his gf) is
not giving him freedom.
Everytime,i mean of the time, Grace wants to follow him wherever Robin goes.
Maybe sometime Robin needs his own personal time with friends too.
That stupid dun even know what is the meaning of communication.
He can always tell Grace about it.
They have been together for so long.
Maybe each of them cannot go on life properly without each other.
That time,after breaking with grace,robin keep saying he has his freedom.
But stupid also can tell that he is very inhappy.just look at the way he drink durng chalet.
haix..
Anyway,finally he still have chance and they patch back again..aslovingas the past.
Please let them forever lovely and dun end up like me..
I know i have no more chance...yet i still waiting...

Anyway back to hogan too..
Hogan also been in love with that Pearlyn.
i dunno her but only saw her in hogan's friendster.
NOT MY TYPE HOR!
Anyway, Hogan was confuse if he want to go for it as he do not know she likes hogan a not..lol
Then i asked him how long they know each other already,he tell me to take care of my problem first.-.-...fine
let it be...but i can only say she is not hogan's type cos she is too..imean sure got lots of other boys want to chase her too. Maybe too stressful for Hogan( since i know him too well)
Anyway, batna is in love too!
haha, but he is confuse who he likes most......One is his roomate and the other one is...DOCRAS!
hahah..docras is same class as we too..
Anyway,he is trying hard to see who he likes most..
Luckily,we can see that Docras is opening up for batna.
Haha,just like what batna last time said, study comes in first as we have no time for relationships.
But sometimes, this " love" feeling just strike you out of no way.
That is why i always said," You will now know what will happen ever you have promise something to yourself."
Just like what she keeps saying now that she wants to be single forever.
But hopefully one day, she really finds the true love that she really want.
By that time i can finally rest in peace....even though i still want to wait...
Haha...how stubborn am i.
Anyway, that mr ong..is so funny.
Maybe someone likes him, he also have no idea.-.-
He has the intelligience, but simply lack of observation and human-relationship skills.

Finally i tend to settle myself.
Trying my best to keep myself occupy.
Next is test liao..haix.
i still remenber the great support that she gave me during my previous exam.
I have no motivation to study now.
Everytime come staight home after school.
Dun feel like staying out with the classmates.
Hogan,batna,robin,jovian....and all the boys i know....
they only know how to talk about girls..
exactly like william, a big radar on the head scanning for girls.
Everytime in canteen 1(place filled with GIRLS), when they see a pretty girl,
for example,hogan saw one walking past, then he will say," the one in green!"
then everyone will start looking.-.-
Very lame indeed.
I have totally no interest in them...reason?
I have no idea.
Jovian always say," this guy got no interest in girls one,"
lol-.-
To me, it is so rude to lookat them like that.
I mean girls are human too..
Can you imagine you walk on the street and everyone stare at you.
dam...Dunno why..i just feel all the boys are fucking* preverts...haha
Somemore i am the most quiet in the group.
Dun like to be with the girls too,cos nothing much to talk.
Therefore, one thing to is to play psp...lol
OR...go home lor.
haha..come back home..no motivation to study..
just want to daydream.
Still, sometime feel i have lost something.
I have saw her blog(telling me not to wait)..haix.
nvm...keep watching youtube to keep myself ouccupy..haha

"Best Chalet" part 3

Finally after buying sotongs.
Marcus and i wash them and bring it back to peirong.
Then we bath and too tired that we fall asleep.
When we awake, more classmates came.
Too bad miss sim did not come as she was sick.
But our chinese teacher came, bringing her children as well.
Everyone started to cheer up once again..
forgeting thier tedious cycling trip...haha
OH..almost forgot to add on..
Poh chong fall of the bicycle after coming a big "bang" with a tree.
lol he really cock-eye..haha
however, he keep saying that the tree run so fast and bang onto him -.-
Also,ronaldo fall on during the down slope..
luckily, he was unharmed.
Can i imagine if i told this to dear.
She comfirmed will say," See lah, never take care of do do"..lol
nvm..she ...
anywhere, jonathan and peirong was doing the BBQ most of the time.
The rest was chatting and playing poker cards.
Finally at around 1 am..
I take over peirong while she went and chat with the girls.
During thier conversation, they were talking to boy-girl relationship.
Haix..they asked if lifen's big sister still got stead with her boyfriend a not.
She immediately reply "yup,yup"
They have been steading for around 3 years...even the bf is in NS.
Then peirong said,"my teacher said that the relationship will be thestrongest if the girl able to wait for the bf after NS"
During thier conversation, i was daydreaming again.
Thinking of what i always tell her,
and i remember she always says," i will wait for you for NS de"
haix..dunno why..i emo again.
The next day, i never talk at all.
Everyone wakes out and preparing to book out.
Then the 6 of us(boys) took the big big taxi to ron's house..
I totally did not open my mouth...keeps thinking of the past...
Then the boys went to swimmed in ron's condo..
for me...i refuse to swim...emoing alone...haha
then finally they went to kbox..
i went home..alone..
and sleep...
trying not to think so much..
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"Best Chalet" part 2

On thursday, Marcus and i went to ronaldo's house to stay over.

We are totally well-prepared.
We went to eat murtabak.
Haha, i drink Milo dinosaur while marcus drink Milo Gorzilla!
Sound very weird but it was very nice.
Then we ordered Fried ice-cream.
It was really interesting to know how they really fry the ice cream.
We played psp until late 2am.
At that time when both ron and marcus was sleeping, i started to think of her again..haix
Finally the next morning, we set off at around 1pm which was extremely late -.-
We brought a bottle of wine and took a cab with nixon to Pasir Ris.
Then we met Pei Rong , Ziyan and ting.
We went to buy the BBQ food first.
Finally Grace came..cannot even recognise her -.-
Marcus was asked to choose PRAWNS as he is a fish "mongo" now.
HAHA.
Finally, we went into the chalet house with our heavy things.
While waiting for the rest to come, we play a game.
I have no idea what is the name of the game..
but the whole idea is to put your hands and legs onto the correct colours.
It was quite fun.
Finally everyone arrived, and we walked to the bicycle shop to book the bicycle.
Marcus and i almost lead the wrong way and get ourselves lost -.-
We managed to get a discount for everyone and get our suspension bike.
However, there was not enough suspension bike so some of
us have to take the normal mountain bike.
At first, i was having suspension bike.
However, 2 bikes were broken down resulting me to use to mountain bike...ROAR
A problem occur when we have no proper place to park our bike.
Finally, me ,marcus , yeow koon and nixon and pohchong toook shifts to look after the bike.
We ride our bike around the park to kill our boredom sometimes.
I would really want to thanks yeow koon to takecare of the bike for so long.
Anywhere , when we ride around the park.
I have been chatting with Pei Rong.
Pei Rong told me that the girls were actually shocked to find out that
marcus and i planned the bicycle journey.
Not only does the journey but the equipments needed too.
Also, I found out from her that she actually knows our blog...WTH
thats means Miss Sim knows too!Arghhh
Anywhere , we rested until around 2 am.
Finally the girls have no patience and we finally set off at around 2.30am
Everything start off very well, except for ziyan.
She is a very poor cyclist and we have to really take care of her.
During the journey, i keep praying to God that please let this
trip be a success.
Marcus and i was carried a very big responsibility to
ensure everyone is safe throughout the whole journey.
There is a total of 13 people in this journey.
It was amazing to find out that everyone did not want any rest at all.
After 1 hour of the journey, our butt started to feel the the intensive pain.
It was a very peaceful night when we passed through all the park connectors.
Some of the residents were fishing and some were enjoying the night scenerio.
Marcus and i was expecting the road to be very dark.
However, it was very bright and clear though.
Somehow during the journey, The boys were complainin that henry
kept stoppingfor no reason.
When Zul was doing bicycle stunts...pei rong was getting slower and slower
as she was already very exhausted.
But no matter what, we reach the Mac in East coast around 5am.
The girls were very tired and were complaining about the thier butt(pain).
It was very sad and demoralized when some of them said they dun want any more
cycling trip in future.
Some of them wanted to take the MRT home too.
haix...
finally we abandoned our watching of sunrise plan and cycled back.
Everyone was really tired..
We too different path home...
It was so dam bloody longer path..nvm.
Finally everyone reach the chalet at around 8am.
Totally burned out, some of them went to bed without bathing.
while some slept on the chairs near the sea.
For me,marcus and ron and yeowkoon, and nixon,we were somehow..
still energertic.
Marcus and i follow Pei Rong and ride to the wet market to buy sotong..lol
i almost get killed by one supid unclewho wan to went past me during the ride.-.-

"Best Chalet" part 1
I could only say," This is the best chalet i ever attend."
I has been waiting for this very moment.
Cos this may be the last chalet for 402.
I had came in peparation with Marcus.
We have been planning what to do during chalet long ago.
Finally, we decided to have a cycling expedition.
Initially, this programme was organised for the 402 boys.
Cos i doubt the girls have the ability to cycle that long.
Our objective was to cycle from Pasir Ris park to East coast park to see sun rise.
However, Nixon rise an important point.
He said," what happen if the girls really want to join?"
Ok fine, i have no choice but to sms Elieen to ask the girls wheather they want to ask us a not.
As expected from my prediction, It was a very good response.
My responsibility raises 100% more.
Marcus and i personally went to Pasir Ris park to test the whole journey.
Fortunately, Marcus knew half of the journey as he has went with his JC people.
Too bad, his friends do not have the perservarance to carry on.
It was a chill weather with an "ambush" feeling during the demo.
I am a good cyclist until that day.
I learn how to cycle with one hand!!!!And able to stand on the bike.
It is true that we have achieved something.Yet it comes with great price.
My butt and my "balls" hurts after sitting on the bike for around 3 hours.
haha

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